basking in it
i’m still filled with joy about NOT having to take any more overnight in-hospital call. no matter how much i tried to reframe things and pump myself up for the 30 hour shifts, i never could get over the 2 AM hump when a call from the ER just feels like slow motion misery.
i am thankful that i was able to rise to the occasion and take care of sick patients when needed, but even more so to be passing the torch. i am amazed and so grateful that there are others that CAN do this and not seem to mind it all that much!
i’m also thankful that we’ve never gone on ‘lockdown’ like on the grey’s finale, which i watched last night. talk about heart-pounding — i think i had several cardiac events during the 90 minute episode.
over the past 2 months, i have barely cooked at all, at least compared to normal. sure, i’ve whipped up so-called ‘dinners’, but with a heavy reliance on quick pre-prepared items (thank god for amy and her kitchen!).
i think last night’s post-call pizza was the last straw — i’m ready to cook, serve, and eat REAL food again. i have truly missed the rituals of weekly menu planning, grocery shopping, and nightly dinner prep — not to mention the appreciative ‘mmmmmms’ that josh bestows upon even everyday creations.
and . . . what better way to kick-start myself than a dinner party? i decided to have my team (intern + his wife + my attending, who is one of the chief residents) over for dinner to celebrate a month that was fun (in some ways), productive, and OVER!
the lemony menu
✰ giada’s sweet pea and mint crostini
✰ the aforementioned rachael ray greek salad
✰ roasted salmon with lemon relish (by martha! oh, i’ve missed her!)
✰ pine nut and lemon orzo from cooking light
it should be a fun evening. but for now — off to my LAST weekend day on the wards as a resident.
workout: 5 miles on the TM at 8:57/mi while reading real simple. i really LOVE that mag!
happiness project note: my weekly goal to “delight in the mundane” is going pretty well. in some ways, i made the best of my last call night — trying to focus on the positives of taking responsibility for patients overnight and enjoying the fun of working as a team. but much easier was the simple pleasure taken in my night in, alone (josh was on call) with grey’s and a glass of wine. that doesn’t sound like a big deal, but in the past i might have sulked that i wasn’t doing anything more exciting; last night i just enjoyed the peace.