habit & predictability
first off: for the record, i’m not in labor! and there are are no signs of impending labor. i realize these things can change in an instant sometimes, but as of now all’s quiet on the uhh . . . southern front.
unfortunately not one of my virtues. but no one is pregnant forever!
i just woke up a funky fatigued mess yesterday and couldn’t think of anything to post other than whining + complaining . . . so i didn’t. thankfully, i’m feeling somewhat better this morning.
second: i said it last year on 4/1 and i’ll say it again: i am just not a fan of april fools’ day. i don’t like fooling people, and i don’t really like to be fooled! last year, the worst were the fake ultrasound pictures on facebook — at 2.25 years into my TTC journey i will just say i was in no mood.
so, as ready as i feel, i’m actually a little bit glad i didn’t go into labor yesterday or the day before, because i didn’t really want to saddle my firstborn with a 4/1 entrance into the world [although perhaps having this birthday would actually make one IMMUNE to pranks + tricks? anyone celebrating their bday today, feel free to let me know!].
third: i think my thought process on the morning of april 1st must go like this:
april –> summer
summer –> new sandals!
because just like last 4/1, i have a pair of clompers on the brain:
diamond-sliced wedges, $198
i realize that they are $$$ and look like something out of the hunger games, but something keeps bringing me back to admire them again and again.
and when i look wistfully at my #1 object of affection last april [same BRAND even!]:
look through wedges – sadly no longer available
. . . it just makes me want them more.
these huarache wedges may look a little more practical, but walking around in 5″ heels carrying an infant just seems irresponsible.
a) feeling sorry for myself and incredibly impatient
b) attempting to distract, distract, distract!
we ended up seeing the latest blockbuster:
i have to admit it WAS pretty captivating, and i thought the acting was decent — but i just didn’t love it. my apologies to all of the superfans out there! in some ways, i actually found it fairly torturous to watch because the concept disturbed me so much, to the point that i just wanted it to be OVER. yet the depth just wasn’t there for me to make my discomfort feel worth it! [perhaps it’s the overly sensitive pregnant brain effect — case in point, i SOBBED while watching time-traveler’s wife on friday night].
looking for a much [much] lighter distraction we stopped at the bookstore and i brought home this book:
my sister-in-law is french and has two daughters, so i am particularly curious to read this! i also picked up tina fey’s bossypants, which is quite entertaining so far. [by the way, i finally finished 1Q84 and am just so sad it’s over! loved it.]
plans are to avoid getting tricked, clean up the apartment, relax, and prepare for the next week with the assumption that labor is days away. apparently ‘due date’ = a foolish concept!