I sort of feel like a hypocrite.
I enjoy the podcast Maintenance Phase and love that discussions about body acceptance and diet culture are having a moment.
I HATE how much time and energy pursuing culturally-determined physical ideals takes away from women.
I also hate how women are judged by their appearance (highlighted in this recent No Stupid Questions episode, as one possible factor for why women are less happy than men).
I also want to feel good. And I want to look AND feel fit. I mean, that isn’t a secret — I did 80 Day Obsession, after all! Whether that’s because I grew up on this earth and bathed in patriarchal influences, who knows — but it’s reality.
So I have Kae’s recommended EmPowered Radio (about macros, fat loss, and strength training) on my podcast queue right next to Maintenance Phase. And I honestly see value in both AND the hypocrisy of it all.
I have been focusing on eating ‘cleaner’ for two weeks. I know that term is arbitrary, but to me it means putting intention into food choices and portion size, and cutting out extras that are more for fun than for fuel. I was not feeling great in my clothes (hate the limited wardrobe I end up with when I am just a few lbs up!), and 2 weeks in things are already much better. The distracting buzzing that I don’t look/feel my best is largely gone and I am happy about that and motivated to continue.
So, here we are. Feeling sheepish and guilty for succumbing to societal influences, and yet . . . happier.
(Also, it has been a nice distraction from the political insanity going on. I have been following and just trying not to get too stressed, but it’s hard.)
On that note, upper body strength workout time.