You may have noticed I have not been posting here early these days. This is because my runs are starting earlier, since I am often training for a bit longer. And when I thought about it, I was loathe to move:
- my morning reading
- morning meditation (because I usually am just not in the mood for it later on)
- planning tasks – currently this includes: filling in my 5-year journal, adding a few things to my EC Monthly (reading + screen time), and planning out the day
I didn’t want to get up any earlier, and I didn’t want to make my workouts any shorter.
SO. Here we are. It’s lunchtime, I am done with morning patients, and this is starting to feel like a viable routine.
(Some days I will still post early, especially on non-clinical days when I have more flexibility. But I think this will be the new normal for now.)
I ran with my social group (my fast friend + others who are closer to my pace) this morning. I did fine for about 4 miles while we were all together, but then just felt done. Similar to my failed tempo after flu. This time, I’m more confident that it’s post-viral performance lag.
My half marathon is 1.5 weeks away though and I’m not sure I am quite where I want to be.
I am not thrilled about this forecast, though obviously it can change:
On the up side, I am very used to training in those temps. AND the race starts at ~6 am (or even 5:50?) so not too much time with hot sun beating down.
On the down side, BAH. This is not actually that far from average in Ft Lauderdale for mid-Feb. But I was still hooping for a cooler day.
I guess the lesson is that if I want PR-worthy weather . . .don’t run local races.
I still wonder why I care about ‘racing’ and training and striving (ie, my desire get faster and eventually BQ). From a purely logical perspective, it’s silly. Like – why waste mental space on something I am not even naturally good at? I’m never going to get anything tangible from my running career; actually the opposite is the case. I don’t need running to achieve a certain physical ideal (honestly, weight training works better for that in my case). Running a few times casually/week would be plenty for fitness and a little endorphin rush. And while I sometimes feel really good after a harder run, they (for me) can also trigger migraines.
AND YET. Here we are. Here I am.
I am more mid-pack than ever and more obsessed than ever. I listen to running podcasts (like . . . several) and have a long lists of races I want to run. I am planning on spending my allowance money on a running coach after this race even if I know the changes coaching might induce will be arbitrary to anyone but me. And I wonder why, but then it’s also like . . . why do anything?
Life is short. I find this (mental and physical) game fun. So I guess I will keep playing.
BLPA Spring Launch Update
This has gone really well!!! I released the signup info to the waitlist yesterday and was so excited to see some longtime readers on the list. The cohort is (as of now) ~2/3 full. Grateful that people continue to put their confidence in me! I definitely plan on doing a detailed exit survey of both cohorts so that I can continue to make the program better and better with time.
Oh! I had such a great specialty session* with Cohort 1 yesterday, meeting with many of the academics in the first round. It was so great that I have decided to keep the “specialty sessions” as open to all alumni of BLPA as long as it is offered – meaning, people will be able to have mini-reunions and kind of revisit the course and follow up on progress during these sessions.
*BLPA has 7 core sessions going through different levels of planning which are webinar/workshop style, but the specialty sessions are designed to be more social with those who have different challenges in common. There is one for parents of young kids/pregnancy, one for academics, one for health care providers, and one for empty nest/child-free. (Anyone is welcome to come to any so I loved having an attorney join us in academics yesterday!)