down, down, down, down?
sorry. had to get that out of my system.
all right. i’ve talked a big game lately — it’s resolution time, after all, and that’s one of my favorite times of the year — perhaps even my #1 favorite now that ‘back-to-school’ no longer applies. (what? i’ve embraced my inner nerd.)
but the truth is, i’ve been in a horrible mood all week.
trying to make the best of things in a fun outfit today, but still pouting.
note: i realize that while (like it or not) these issues are currently impacting my psyche, pretty much NONE of the points listed below are things that are truly important. they are totally first world problems, and probably petty ones at that. but i don’t wallow in a vat of self-pity that often, so just indulge me this once . . .
⬇ i’m mad because my hair does not meet my expectations. i loved it before washing, but afterwards something happened and it’s much fluffier than it was previously, especially towards the ends. also, i pretty much hate the choppy cut, which just seems to amplify the pouf. i’m debating going back to the salon and complaining (since i shelled out >$300) . . . but i’m worried they could make things even worse.
⬇ you know what is not helping me out right now? seeing everyone’s shiny, happy christmas breaks on other blogs. i realize that is a ridiculous (and pathetic, and maybe wrong) thing to admit, but it’s true. this is the first year of my life that i have had no real christmas (or new year’s) break aside from a measly 3-day weekend (coming up), and that saddens me a little. also, please note that if i had engaged in a shiny/happy christmas break of my own, i would be posting about it up the wazoo, so this is my issue, not yours!
⬇ running restrictions. of course, i have been getting race announcements in the mail every other week and josh — who hasn’t trained consistently in years — is all the sudden running regularly and following a training plan. bah.
⬇ the real green monster: i found out that yet another one of my friends is 10 weeks pregnant. she went off of the pill in august. this august. i am definitely happy for her, but at the same time, it hurt. at least she’s not a runner.
so there you have it. what would really help is if i could instantly be on vacation with perfect hair and cooperating ovaries. or perhaps some of you can commiserate.
or maybe i should make a list of things that make me smile
(and finish up the ‘smile’ page while i’m at it!)
1. zen habits. because leo babauta seems to just get how to live.
5. you all. seriously, you have no idea how much your comments and emails have helped me, especially this week. so thank you, thank you, thank you.
workout: 3 miles @ 9:13/mi on the TM, 0.5% incline. i don’t have much more to say about that.