baby are you down

December 29, 2010

down, down, down, down?

sorry. had to get that out of my system.

all right. i’ve talked a big game lately — it’s resolution time, after all, and that’s one of my favorite times of the year — perhaps even my #1 favorite now that ‘back-to-school’ no longer applies. (what? i’ve embraced my inner nerd.)

but the truth is, i’ve been in a horrible mood all week.

trying to make the best of things in a fun outfit today, but still pouting.
an analysis
note: i realize that while (like it or not) these issues are currently impacting my psyche, pretty much NONE of the points listed below are things that are truly important. they are totally first world problems, and probably petty ones at that. but i don’t wallow in a vat of self-pity that often, so just indulge me this once . . .

i’m mad because my hair does not meet my expectations. i loved it before washing, but afterwards something happened and it’s much fluffier than it was previously, especially towards the ends. also, i pretty much hate the choppy cut, which just seems to amplify the pouf. i’m debating going back to the salon and complaining (since i shelled out >$300) . . . but i’m worried they could make things even worse.

⬇ you know what is not helping me out right now? seeing everyone’s shiny, happy christmas breaks on other blogs. i realize that is a ridiculous (and pathetic, and maybe wrong) thing to admit, but it’s true. this is the first year of my life that i have had no real christmas (or new year’s) break aside from a measly 3-day weekend (coming up), and that saddens me a little. also, please note that if i had engaged in a shiny/happy christmas break of my own, i would be posting about it up the wazoo, so this is my issue, not yours!

running restrictions. of course, i have been getting race announcements in the mail every other week and josh — who hasn’t trained consistently in years — is all the sudden running regularly and following a training plan. bah.

the real green monster: i found out that yet another one of my friends is 10 weeks pregnant. she went off of the pill in august. this august. i am definitely happy for her, but at the same time, it hurt. at least she’s not a runner.

so there you have it. what would really help is if i could instantly be on vacation with perfect hair and cooperating ovaries. or perhaps some of you can commiserate.

or maybe i should make a list of things that make me smile
(and finish up the ‘smile’ page while i’m at it!)
1. zen habits. because leo babauta seems to just get how to live.

[favorites: how not to multitask; simply & savor life; living lightly; how not to hurry; kindfully & mindfully]

2. writing lists. preferably with a good pen on good paper.

3. beautiful design.

4. this guy:

[who, incidentally, has put up with a lot this week. sorry, babe.]

5. you all. seriously, you have no idea how much your comments and emails have helped me, especially this week. so thank you, thank you, thank you.



workout: 3 miles @ 9:13/mi on the TM, 0.5% incline. i don’t have much more to say about that.

return to martha: i dug out my martha for a re-run of her pumpkin enchiladas with chicken. they didn’t photograph well last year or this year, but at least they were consistent.

smothered in cheesy goodness


  • Reply Anonymous March 10, 2019 at 7:24 pm

    hugshugshugshugshugs! this is totally a tough time to be done but you have a great support system and i&#39m sure that things will start to get better at some point. when? i wish i knew and know that&#39s probably the LAST thing you want to hear right now. but keep moving forward 🙂

    did i miss the post where you talked to the doc about the pregnancy stuff? i vaguely remember you mentioning that you were going to meet and chat with someone (informally i think) but i never caught a followup

  • Reply Sarah Hart-Unger March 10, 2019 at 7:24 pm

    cp: thank you, darling!! that means a lot to me! and i hope the best for your health issues!!

    mm: i quoted her here. ie: not a lot of specific instruction, but i got the general gist. and i have been seeing a reproductive endocrinologist (meds, ultrasounds, etc) for a few months now . . . so not so informal anymore.

  • Reply Engineer Baker March 10, 2019 at 7:24 pm

    Major hugs, Sarah. Can I just say that you&#39re not the only one down in the dumps this Christmas? Kudos to you for being so honest and forthright about it – sometimes putting it out there is a big step towards being able to work past all the bad things going on. And remember, I&#39m all about the 3 & 4 milers, followed by LoYo. Because it&#39s all about balance 🙂

  • Reply Doctor Blondie March 10, 2019 at 7:24 pm

    Well everybody is allowed to be down from time to time.
    Maybe the new year will be better.

  • Reply Anonymous March 10, 2019 at 7:24 pm

    The economy of zen of my life

    you never get 100%
    Learn to be happy with 90%
    It&#39s the last 3% you try to get that drives you crazy
    is crazy worth 3%?

    The zen: Once you are at peace with 90% opportunities arise you would have never considered since they are exclusive of the 3% that is driving you crazy. Seize these and adventure will be yours

  • Reply Susannah March 10, 2019 at 7:24 pm

    Well….on the (totally doesn&#39t make up for the bad side at all) bright side, your outfit in the pouty pic is so adorable! Is the skirt corduroy? Also, love the cheesy eggs! I second the first comment…I am so sorry things aren&#39t going your way right now, and thank you for continuing to post thoughtful and honest accounts.

  • Reply Sarah March 10, 2019 at 7:24 pm

    Big hugs to you Sarah! (and i love your skirt)

  • Reply Anonymous March 10, 2019 at 7:24 pm

    Sarah, did you see Gretchen Rubin&#39s segment on the Today show (maybe last week?) talking about how common it is to have "the blues" this time of year? High expectations, stress, bad weather, etc. My boyfriend is going through a "down" time right now, only wish he would be more open about it like you are!
    Keep up the great writing, and the "smile" list – never forget what the good things are in your life!

  • Reply Iman March 10, 2019 at 7:24 pm

    This is my first comment but your blog is part of my morning ritual. I enjoy it because it is thoughtful, and a good example of time management. I appreciate you being a runner, wife, adventurer and a fellow! well balanced and organized life and you did influence me with that!
    I hope you have a wonderful new year and please be patient.

  • Reply Meghann March 10, 2019 at 7:24 pm

    <3 you. That is all

  • Reply Meredeth March 10, 2019 at 7:24 pm

    Hey Sarah,

    Long time no comment on my part, but I just wanted to say that I know the whole running thing really has you down, but I think without a doubt you are doing the right thing. Yes, there are definitely people out there who can run 100 miles a week, have minimal body fat, and still have lots of healthy babies. But not everyone can be a pediatric endocrinologist either, and not everyone has a loving husband, family, and friends. It may be that you need to just relax and put on some pounds in order to get pregnant. I have definitely heard of that happening to people, and that could very well be me in a couple years when the time is right for me to start thinking about children. Already, I&#39ve started cutting down on the miles in order to try and get things back on track. You can ALWAYS become a runner again, and losing a little (or even a significant amount) of weight is a piece of cake for someone who knows how to live a healthy lifestyle. So I say go with it – you have your whole life to run and be in top physical shape, but you don&#39t have your whole life to have healthy babies. Seriously.

    Best in the new year – I hope to see you up north (or maybe even down south) sometime in the not-so-distant future!

  • Reply Anonymous March 10, 2019 at 7:24 pm

    I TOTALLY understand. After our two week waiting period after our IUI, I was not pregnant:(. And some of the meds made me so depressed. Now I am benched for the month with a giant cyst and on birth control pills. We try to joke about it, but it seems really horrible to be taking them. We now call the couch the depression couch because I am on it all the time. Hang in there, with all the hormones, injections, etc, I think it is a natural response to be bummed. I have been going to acupuncture and whether or not it is helping the baby making process is iffy but the stress relief and zen I get from going is great. I always feel good when I leave. That and yoga are my saviors.

  • Reply Marlow March 10, 2019 at 7:24 pm

    I am WITH YOU! I only had 4 days off for Christmas and I have been throwing myself a pity party all morning. ALSO I recently had a disappointing haircut at Citrine in CH. UGH. It is so frustrating. I went back to complain and for advice due to the choppiness and she recommended using a flat iron. I actually laughed out loud and reminded her that I told her that it&#39s a triumph for me to even dry my hair. BAH!

    But I think that listing positive items in your life right now is the perfect way to go! Good for you for writing this post!! 🙂

  • Reply Valerie @ City|Life|Eats March 10, 2019 at 7:24 pm

    Hugs to you Sarah, I am so sorry this has been a less than stellar week and so impressed you can post about it in a way that is honest and totally relatable. I have just been pouting in my corner but have not yet found a way to post about it on my blog 🙁

    Like you, I am so aware that I have first world problems. I worked all of Thanksgiving weekend including day of Thanksgiving, worked most of Christmas weekend, and I am having outpatient surgery on Tuesday next week but I feel weird being whiny about that one because I have health insurance and the tumor that is being removed was benign at biopsy three years ago and really, why am I even complaining. You get the idea. So go you for posting about it so gracefully 🙂 I need to learn how to do that instead of just not mentioning it on my blog.

  • Reply atilla March 10, 2019 at 7:24 pm

    nothing like a little sadness to get the comments flowing I have 4 days off and its being billed as a great vacation! The reality is you are not running and your endorphins need to find a new source of stimulous

  • Reply Heather @ Side of Sneakers March 10, 2019 at 7:24 pm

    Awww cheer up Sarah!! Although I really think just admitting what&#39s getting you down is helpful- who cares if you&#39re not supposed to be upset about it 😉 I definitely feel you on the running restrictions- I wish there was a way to automatically delete every email that comes in with the word "run" or "race" in it.

  • Reply Amy March 10, 2019 at 7:24 pm

    Big hugs for you! Here&#39s hoping the New Year brings you and your husband many blessings. Hang in there. Also, I&#39d go back and see what they can do about your hair. I wasn&#39t happy with a $20 haircut once and went back. It was worth it because I left with something I really enjoyed. It&#39s worth a shot.

  • Reply Anonymous March 10, 2019 at 7:24 pm

    i&#39m a regular reader, but this is my first time posting. just wanted to say that i&#39m pulling for you… within a year after my husband and i found out that we couldn&#39t have children, my sister and my three closest girlfriends all became pregnant. (and guess who was asked to throw all four showers? i did it happily, but many tears were shed in private).

    as a runner who&#39s always trying (and failing) to get my husband to join me on a run, i&#39d be grouchy if he started running just when i couldn&#39t. josh, c&#39mon! why not go swimming, indoor rock climbing, or to a yoga class *together*?

    i hope that next week is better for you, sarah! if you need a pick-me-up, i&#39d suggest new yoga clothes from lululemon. 😉

  • Reply Anonymous March 10, 2019 at 7:24 pm

    Keep your chin up! The skirt is adorable. I say talk to the salon -maybe there is a simple solution, wouldn&#39t hurt to ask. Just remember to breathe

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