A “Perfect” Weekday . . .
After all of my grousing, yesterday turned out to be a much better day. C slept 9 (nine!!) hours straight (6:30p-3:30a) and I went to bed at 9. I got up at 5 with nearly 8 hours of sleep (he ate for 10-15 minutes at 3:30, and that was that). The result was an amazingly rested feeling for me that lasted all day.
He didn’t repeat this performance last night, so I know we still have a ways to go. But it did remind me that better nights of sleep are probably (maybe) up ahead. Someday.
Yesterday felt good on several other counts, too. I:
✿ pumped 18 oz (= 4.5 oz surplus for the day). Yes, I cannot but help feeling good about myself when I can do this. Yes, I know I’m crazy.
✿ got to enjoy a nice post-work slice of time with A&C. C was playful and sweet and went to sleep happily at 7, and Annabel and I had some good one-on-one time until her bedtime at 8. No crying occurred during the 2 hour window from either kid, which I consider a small miracle.
✿ felt like I connected well with patients at work, AND kept up with my notes! I did a lot more typing in the room and tried to do more while pumping.
✿ managed to squeeze in a lunch with coworkers (a belated birthday lunch). I was completely stressed about fitting this into my work day, but there was a conveniently-timed no show (whew) and somehow it all worked out.
What I didn’t get to do:
❏ I didn’t get much time with Josh because of my new 9:00pm bedtime.
❏ I didn’t run or do any other exercise.
On the whole: a very lovely weekday. However, I found myself dwelling on my non-accomplishments, like the blog post I didn’t write or the miles I didn’t run. It made me realize that I tend to have a sort of checklist going into every day, and I often focus on the unchecked boxes, real or imagined.
. . . I probably need to stop doing that. Because I’m not going to check every box every day, and yet all signs point to the fact that I’m doing pretty well.
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I tend to dwell on my non checked accomplishments too. Ugh. It can be a bad cycle emotionally. And like you said. . . the reality is that we are both doing REALLY well given the circumstances of the day in and day out!
I think… given how much better you feel today with a little extra sleep, that it might be worth letting go not getting to see Josh — for a few days — or go for that run. I would also suggest letting go of pumping 5 times per day (maybe do 4??), but I don’t want to get hit. 😉
C’s sounds like he’s well on the way to STTN. I’ll be he drops wake up #2 permanently in a week or so.
Speaking as someone with a 3 yr old (long gone are the emotionally charged days of breast feeding) it seems healthier for everyone to switch to formula instead of pumping, and spend your time exercising, sleeping, or strengthening your marriage. Everyone is different, I know, but I worked so hard pumping at the expense of other- dare I say more important- things, and I regret it. If I could go back, or if I have another child, I will breast feed when home, but supplement with formula and forget the stupid pump.