I’ve been in a bit of a soul-searching mood over the past few weeks. As a result, I’ve been doing more moody contemplating, more personal journaling, and less blogging. Ironically, one of the things I’ve been brooding about is my lack of writing here.
Honestly, I miss it.
Lately — “in this season”, as they say — I seem to be carrying a nagging low-level frustration at all times. I’m not unhappy, and I recognize that I have SO MUCH to be grateful for every single day. But I seem to be harboring this constant feeling like I am always behind on . . . something. Work, home, various annoying to-do items, even fun tasks like sending (social) emails or buying gifts. At the same time, I am noticing that when I do have so-called ‘free time’, I am not using it well. It’s almost like I’m waiting for an entire responsibility-free day to open up so that then, THEN I will use the time to think and reflect and write.
I think it’s time to stop waiting, as it’s clear that day is not gonna come. Really, it is a beautiful thing that life is this full and colorful and moving so fast. However, I still need an outlet. I still need down time, me time, and time for reflection. Writing this blog provides all of those things, and in the thick of it all, I love that this craft is not related to work or motherhood.
It is not knitting. It is not Pinterest-worthy. It is perhaps a little self-centered (aren’t most hobbies?), but I think that sometimes I might be lucky enough to piece together words that help/inspire/provide entertainment. I am going to dive back into this blog. I don’t necessarily believe I will be able to pull off a daily post long term, but for a month or so I’m going to see what happens when I try.
PS: I know “blogs are dead” or whatever, but I’m cool with that.
PPS: If there are any topics anyone wants to hear about in particular, I’m up for any suggestions