i’m on call today. 30 hours of unknown craziness in the hospital stretch out before me. amazingly, it usually goes pretty fast once it starts.
yesterday was okay. not great, mind you — just okay. one of the attendings employs intimidation tactics (and overall ‘tude) that i haven’t seen since med school on my surgery rotation. luckily, i’m stronger now and don’t really care as much if i get made fun of. all i want is to get through my required weeks without being fired, and to learn stuff. honestly, anxiety about being made to look foolish really pales in comparison to the fear i had recently on having to cover the community hospital all by myself. and this rotation is one of my chances to gain the skills necessary so that i WON’T have that inexperience-fueled fear.
so i’ll try to keep that in mind when i just want to hide somewhere and go to sleep.
workout: i relieved some stress with an easy-paced 6 mile run and some weights. my running still isn’t feeling 100%, but hopefully things will start to feel better by the end of the week.
reading: i spent 45 minutes refreshing myself on various congenital heart lesions and their repairs, and flipped through our (rather awesome, i must say) PICU handbook.
cooking: i highly recommend this recipe for curried chicken salad with apples and raisins from cooking light. super-easy (i grilled up some chicken breast strips rather than using the referenced recipe for an entire roasted chicken) and really tasty with the sweet apples and raisins contrasting with the curry flavors.
note to modelbehav: hi and thank you for the shout-out! i will definitely respond but it is going to be tomorrow once i am home and have slept for a while!