zzzzz

after 13 hours of sleep last night (interrupted by a brief dinner/relaxation break), i still don’t feel rested. part of that might be caffeine withdrawal, as i didn’t have time to grab coffee yesterday morning post-call, but i think it’s also that cramming two nights of sleep into one does not work so well. i hate that such a large part of what makes my job challenging is just plain ol’ sleep deprivation — there are so many other adversities that i’d rather face! plus, it is just not something i was cut out for. if they had included an overnight vigil as part of admissions criteria for medical school, i never would have gotten in.

but oh well. someone decided 30 hours was a reasonable period for residents to work, and THAT IS JUST HOW IT IS.

anyway. i have to work today, but i also have to do all of the life-maintaining things that i usually get done on weekend days off, or at least some of them.

realistic goals for the day:

❖ work 7 am – around 12 pm — hopefully!
❖ finish up laundry so that i have things to wear to work next week
❖ plan out dinners, make list & grocery shop so that we can eat next week
❖ 9 mile run + stretching yoga
❖ buy gifts online for people (i already have some ideas . . . see below!)
❖ 30 minutes reading
❖ something ridiculously easy for dinner
❖ in bed by 9!

don’t get me wrong — i am still enjoying the wards. i really like managing a team and taking care of different kinds of patients. but the overnight call is just non-physiologic and getting old. i will not be sad to have a month where i get to sleep every night! who knew that was such a luxury?

anyway, back to more fun things — ie, the online shopping.
from gap.com, this baby jean jacket is one of my favorite things to buy for new babies. so classic, somewhat practical, and SO FREAKING CUTE in teeny-tiny sizes!

in addition to ‘new baby!’ wares, i also need to get gifts for my one-year-old nephew (arghghgh i’m late on this!) and my lovely sister. i think i am also going to buy some of my christmas gifts way early because i already know what i want to give and they are available online. i love that i can go to websites and pick things out without leaving my chair! as much as i love shopping for real, this way fits much more easily into my current lifestyle. and it’s still pretty fun!