don’t worry, nothing dire. she just has ear infection #2. which has led to antibiotics round #3, if you count her 48 hour rule out at birth! i had to keep her home today due to a rather dramatic 103 degree temp on monday afternoon [they have a rule that babies must be fever free x 24 hours before returning].
we spent a rather snuggly day together, although less so as she perked up with abx and ibuprofen.
by mid-afternoon she seemed back to her old self
ie, ready to play demolition derby in our apartment [don’t worry, i keep her from doing any real damage to herself or the environment]. i’ll do an official update later, but at 11 months today, she’s quite mobile but not walking yet. she will cruise around the room and stand unsupported for 5-10 seconds, but has yet to take that first unassisted step.
she loves to march around proudly with help, though.
other big milestones of the day:
1) asking specifically for a certain book to be read over and over. this one, for whatever reason. i kept trying to start others, but she’d go grab this one again and look at me expectantly, and then start panting happily when i started it again. i got a little sick of the rhyme after the 15th round or so, but it was SO cute.
2) dropping her sippy from the high chair purposefully and then saying ‘uh oh’. i think she even knew she was ‘being bad’ but i probably just reinforced her because i got so excited that she was using the word in context, rather than just repeating.
it was a shame that i felt guilty today — but i did.
i had fun with annabel today. however, knowing that i was supposed to be at work sort of cast a shadow on things. i don’t have any legit vacation time because i used it all on maternity leave, but right now i’m on a research month which makes things more flexible. i tried to remind myself that i’ve worked during times that weren’t legit work time — ie, finishing + presenting a poster at a conference while on maternity leave — but it still felt a little wrong to be home, and even more wrong to be . . .well, enjoying it.
repeating after myself, because i tend to be a rather black-or-white person: shades of gray.
i’m not sure how i will handle sick days once i have a full panel of patients scheduled. i hope that perhaps family will be able to help, and if not — maybe i’ll look into an emergency babysitter? of course, i’d drop everything in an instant if miss a. were seriously ill, but for everyday viruses/ear infections, i’ll probably have to figure out a solution that doesn’t involve canceling on multiple patients.
it hurts my heart to write/think that, but it’s true.
well, at least that sort of makes me feel better about today.