Over the past few weeks, I have made the executive decision:
– NOT to go w/ Josh on his work conference in Amelia Island
last weekend (was supposed to bring the kids in a whirlwind trip but — just no, too hectic)
– NOT to go see Real Estate in Philadelphia later this month
– NOT to go to LA for a wedding of one of my oldest childhood friends
– NOT to read the book club book (just didn’t appeal to me, and book club starts at 8 pm
which is way too close to my current bedtime)
– NOT to meditate (because I’m NOT in the mood to get up early)
– NOT to worry about eating 323723 carbs per day
I feel a little wistful about cancelling so many things, but I just need to kind of . . . lie low right now. My body is telling me very loudly and clearly that I need rest, and not late-night flights and a lot of pressure to do much of anything. Between A, C, work, and the occasional run there’s not much energy left and I’m just going to have to be okay with that. And in truth, I am. Everything feels more transient this time around. I know that I will eventually be back to ‘me’, and it’s nice to have that bit of perspective. There will be weekend jaunts and interval workouts someday in the future waiting for me when it’s time.
ALSO, despite all of this NOT doing — there has been enough. I spent the weekend at home with A&C (Josh was away all day Saturday), which was busy enough! We had obscenely nice weather (like zero clouds! not typical for MIA in May). The highlight was definitely A’s ballet recital. She takes classes Children’s Division (non-selective division for young kids) at the Miami City Ballet
— such a cool resource that we have nearby. It’s serious stuff – they have a very specific uniform including mandatory hair ornament that they have to wear each and every week, and the teachers are kind but definitely ballet-strict. So far A seems to like it – we’ll see how long she sticks with it!
I owe you all an update on my Day Off. This is because I don’t feel that I have really . . .figured it out yet. Despite all of the thinking I did about how to use that time (and the great advice many of you had for me), thus far it has mostly been about:
– getting kids to appointments
– getting myself to appointments
– very little else
I’m hoping this is just because I had quite a backlog of Things I Wanted to Be Off For, But Never Was (kids’ dr appointments, dentist appts, eye dr appt, OBGYN appt, parent conferences). This week I totally screwed up my day off by splitting it in two, but I’m going to try to make the most of it!
Ducklings in Annabel’s class! Another thing I opted out of: taking them home for the weekend.
Science kit – we made “soft watery crystals”. A hit with both kids.
She learned to hang on by her legs and jump down onto her hands! I was proud.
And I even made muffins. So maybe things are looking up!