sense of impending something

This phase of pregnancy is so hard for me.

Not physically, though honestly I’m starting to lose my chipper sense of “I feel fine!” because: reflux, nausea, fatigue, etc (though for me it’s still better than 1st trimester!).

It’s the UNCERTAINTY!  Not knowing – will I go 40 weeks again?  Have to be induced at 41!?  Have my water break in the next 5 minutes followed by a precipitous delivery in the living room?  NO ONE CAN SAY.

For a person that really likes her plans – this is quite the challenge.

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I had an OB appointment yesterday, and that just got me riled up more, because I’m apparently 3 cm dilated already.  (Flashback to 2012 when apparently it took an entire night of painful labor to hit 2 cm.  1st vs 3rd baby, I guess!).  I really hadn’t given much consideration to going much earlier than 40 weeks, but this dumb moment (and the OB’s encouraged look) gave me pause.  He then asked if I wanted him to “stir things up” (? strip membranes?  not sure exactly what he meant) but I declined.  37 2/7 seems too early for that, plus I’m supposed to be on call this weekend!

(But I did think about it for a moment.)

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I am starting to get to the point where I can handle work*, the occasional workouts (I did run outside for 3 miles Sunday – one 3 minute walk break each mile), and . . . that’s about it.  I decided I am not up for Lady Gaga (sad) or basically any evening activity, because I need to lie down by around 8:30 each night due to overall fatigue.  The kids have been . . . challenging, and maybe they sense that Change is coming, or perhaps it’s just an energy mismatch between what I currently have and what they need.  We did have some nice times this past weekend but behavior (from A in particular) has been an issue.

(ALSO THE TIME CHANGE.  CAN WE JUST SWITCH BACK ALREADY?!)

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Thanks for your comments on Saturday’s (impulsive!) post.  The author of the RS piece did respond nicely on her blog, and I wrote her back (here).  I get what she’s saying about subjectivity in humor, and she definitely sounds like the meant well.  I stand by my position that it rubbed ME the wrong way (and it sounds like some others), no matter what was intended.  But I loved your feedback (both agreeing + disagreeing!) in the my comments as well.

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WEEKEND PIX


Book Fair

This is 37 weeks (and also 37 years old!)

Date night at a Heat game that we lost miserably 

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WORKOUTS
M – rest

T – treadmill, 32 min – 6 jog / 2 walk x 4

W – rest

R – ran outside, ran 20 min (~11:30/mi), walked 2.5 min, ran 7.5 min (11:20/mi)

F – rest

S – rest

S – ran outside, mi 1 @ 11:29, walked 3 min, mi 2 @ 11:53, walked 3 min, mi 3 @ 12:17, walked 4 min.  Definitely slowing down . . .


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PODCAST!
Episode #16 is up – and it’s perhaps our juiciest yet  🙂  Let me know what you think!

* though it has been insanely busy as patients are all trying to get in / have their labs done before I go out, which has resulted in quite the pile up.  Was doing notes from 5a-6a this morning which I admittedly really don’t love.