T – 3 weeks . . .

February 12, 2018

Well, that went fast!


Maternity leave, that is.  And Genevieve’s first TWO MONTHS of life!  I’m feeling more bitter than sweet about her advancing age, because she is such a good, sweet baby and I am sad (but very certain) we are never going to have one of those again.

I have settled into such a nice routine at home — it’s going to be very hard to let go of all of it.  I have not been bored at all, as some have suggested.  I’m loving the 9:30 am workouts (during G’s first nap and after the two big kids are at school), long snuggle sessions with G on the couch, lots of reading while nursing, picking up the kids at school, afternoon playground time, etc etc.  It’s been a really fun, rewarding interlude.  That said:

1) I DO miss work.  And many of the patients.  And using the medical part of my brain, and learning every day.  I miss feeling like I am putting something positive into the world and also just doing a kickass job from a professional standpoint (not saying I always feel this way, but it’s so great when it happens!).

2) This is not a financially sustainable situation with our current location/lifestyle (and no, it wouldn’t be even without our nanny)

So, I’m going back, and I really am excited to go back.  However, if you asked me would you take more time — even some unpaid — if you knew you 100% could go back to your job with zero professional penalty?

Yes.  Yes I would.  Maybe 6 months, or perhaps even a year.  Pretty much because a) I know pumping is going to be extremely stressful (and yes I know I don’t have to do it, but I WANT to at least try my best) and b) honestly, it has been a refreshing and wonderful mental break for me, and I say this on day 12 of our nanny’s 2 week vacay.

Sadly, that is not an option.  Ah well, maybe that’s for the best!

G is up!  Off to the grocery store . . .