Well, I made it!
Monday was my first day back at work, and for the most part it went well. I did have a very long commute home (70 minutes!) thanks to a jam on I-95 and was hyperventilating about getting home in time for G’s last feeding, but it worked out. Our nanny did an amazing job incorporating G into her routines, and she kept me in the loop about how well things were going, which definitely helped.
I finished 90% of my patient notes. I saw about 80% of my typical patient load, which is pretty strong for a first day! I wasn’t terribly emotional about things, probably because I was too focused on trying to be maximally productive.
And as for the most stressful aspect?
Office setup: mini-fridge + pump that lives there
I think I’m going to add a space heater + I will have optimized this to the extent possible!
Well – I pumped enough. 15 oz for the day (5 oz in the AM / 10 oz during the work day itself), while she drank 13.5 oz (3 x 4.5 oz bottles). I know this is going to be a continual challenge, but I’m trying (trying) to just take it one day at a time and focus on effort NOT outcome.
(Although speaking of effort . . . I think I am going to stop pumping in the early AM on my days off. Even though I consistently did this for the past 2 months, I think my supply never really adjusted and it was leading to a cycle every single day where she’d eat, and beginning with that first not-completely-full feeding of the day, not be completely satisfied, never go long enough between feedings, and culminate in desperate hourly feedings by late afternoon. I’m glad I was able to do this and build my stash, but I want to enjoy my days off with her. So for now, I’m just going to feed her on those days, and not the freezer! A crazy idea, I know.)
I missed her, but it was okay. And I thoroughly enjoyed yesterday’s day off!
Thankfully, I came away reminded that I really do enjoy and get a sense of fulfillment from my career, even on a day-to-day level. And I love the balance of working outside the home, particularly now that I am 4 days/week. I know things will be easier and make more sense once the nursing piece is out of the picture, but I think it’s worth just pushing through the next several (+?) months or so.
So, yeah. I really do think I am experiencing the Best of Both Worlds, even if it is not going to be the easiest of both worlds for a while (or ever. . .). Here goes the rest of the week! I have some extra challenges today and tomorrow as I am at an off-site training (all residency-related stuff!) and will not have access to my Pumping Palace but hopefully there will be an empty office and a fridge I can use.
(If not . . . I guess there’s always my car. Or a bathroom.)
Annabel’s shoe take on work/life balance
(taken on Crazy Shoe Day at school . . . yes it’s a thing)
PS: My SIL Rachel was our podcast guest this week!! She’s a teacher, mother, amazing aunt to A&C&G, community activist, and also happens to pretty much know everyone in the city of Miami Beach (only a slight exaggeration). She’s one of my favorite people and definitely someone who inspires me regularly. Listen here or wherever you get your podcasts!
Hopefully back Friday with a Q1 goals review / Q2 goals post!