Call is going fine from a clinical standpoint. We were busy yesterday, but a manageable level of busy and the day went fast. I think I connected well with patients and I have a very sweet and interested first-year resident working with me, which really adds to the fun.
My stress management still sucks during these weeks. I tend to be very peaceful and chill during the day (which from a doing-my-job standpoint is good!) but then I go home and can’t sleep / relax / do anything that is remotely productive. I have trouble putting myself to bed on time and then get annoyed at myself for not getting enough sleep.
Ahh well. I do much better in the mornings. And it’s morning now! I chose to sleep until 5:40 which means no workout today, but will be able to stay on track with my training plan by doing it tomorrow.
Goals for today/tonight:
If I am stressed I will choose an activity other than Instagram scrolling. Such as: reading, listening to a podcast, journaling/writing things down, or just going to bed
I will put myself to bed by 9:30
I will catch up on charts today to the extent possible (having open charts stresses me out)
It’s actually kind of ironic that I struggle with call so much because I was just thinking yesterday that I really like the clinical work I do with inpatients. It is interesting and (usually) feels meaningful. I just dislike the unpredictability of it all and the lack of autonomy/control. Ahh well. No job is perfect!
I think that this weekend while I am at the office I will spend an hour or two filling in my 2020 Hobonichi. That will be a fun thing to look forward to 🙂 And not a terrible coping mechanism.
Finally: thank you for all of your thoughts on the Apple Watch. I remain undecided. Right now I wear nothing on my wrist and do not bring my phone with me into patient rooms EXCEPT when on call (b/c I can be called from the hospital and need to answer). I was more thinking of the benefits at home, particularly in the evenings between 5p-9p because I find myself continually grabbing my phone when it goes off and then “forgetting” to put it down . . .
I may just give it a try (can always resell if I don’t like it!) but not for a month or so.