Our BeeperMD tester did not show yesterday afternoon. This was the second time this happened and I fear they have just . . . given up?
(BUT THEN WHY DOES THE SITE STILL SHOW OPEN APPOINTMENTS?)
((AND SURELY IN THIS MODERN AGE, SOME KIND OF CANCELLATION TEXT OR EMAIL WOULD BE FEASIBLE?? RATHER THAN JUST GHOSTING PEOPLE!?))
(((I tried contacting them via phone, email, and their chat and received 0 responses.)))
At this point, the testing is specifically because if all 3 kids remain negative, I would be able to send them to camp next week. She is still coughing quite a bit, but I’m hoping she will be better by Monday, an entire 4 days away?
Work has been busy, but since my outpatients were rescheduled it has been doable. I went to the hospital for ~4 hours and finished notes at home. Last night = 2 overnight calls, mostly because every kid in the county seems to be sick right now, either with COVID or other things. It’s a viral cesspool out there.
Every day I don’t wake up feeling sick I am grateful (for vaccines + luck) and mildly surprised.
Rounds (with resident) + notes
Maybe go for a run for my mental health
Work on filling out first few weeks of my 2022 Hobonichi – now starting to be out of necessity as things are filling up and I seem to have some thing written in my current (EC) and some in the new, and I am becoming wary of double bookings.
I feel like I am limping to the finish line of 2021. Oh well!
Here’s an interesting question from Diane:
Oh this sounds like such a hard and stressful balance!
Your post made me realize that I’m lucky (?) that my job is not one where people rely on me for their health and well being, so I can take time off when I need to and the dominos won’t keep falling.
It must be so hard as a physician to balance patient needs with your personal/family needs. Out of curiosity, as a thought exercise, what do you think would be an ideal system for healthcare providers to be able to feel like they can balance professional and personal crises in a way so that doesn’t feel like they’re “half available”? Do you think the solutions lie in better child care or in a different workplace structures? Or…? Or maybe it’s the nature of the work to feel constantly invested in many different directions? (Or maybe just the nature of being a working caregiver? Or just a working human?)
I think for my particular job, being on call requires full time flexible childcare. Which usually I have! When I volunteered to cover Christmas (because I felt I was due to work a major holiday), it was August 2020. Yes, 2020. We do our full year of call schedules many months ahead of time, because we book outpatients quite a few months out, and the outpatient templates vary if you are on call.
When I made that choice, I really didn’t think there would still be a pandemic going on . . . but obviously, I was wrong. I did anticipate that our nanny would likely take vacation around that time, but knew the school offered ‘camp’ and figured finding a babysitter wouldn’t be a big deal for a week. I also (erroneously) figured Josh could be off, not realizing that this is very hard to arrange during the holidays given the size of his group. This still would have worked out fine, except that A got exposed at the wrong time and then developed symptoms (whether actual COVID or not remains unclear). AND our backup babysitter getting it too!!!!
So in summary, I think the answer is full time flexible childcare, but nothing is 100% because %(*#&$ happens, and during a pandemic it seems like a LOT of %*(#$ is likely to happen. I do think I have truly learned my lesson that if I am taking call while our nanny is away, Josh must be entirely off and able to be the main caregiver. Next week (Tuesday going forward — I’m still on call + working Monday) when he is on call, I will be fulfilling that role. At least he is off this weekend.