WOW – SO MANY amazing book recs! I will work on finalizing my own 2022 Reading Inspiration List (less prescriptive than a TBR, but lots of ideas to draw from). I greatly appreciate so many of you sharing your favorites.
Some Work Talk + Reflection
I am rather tired today. My current work schedule has two back-to-back clinic days Monday + Tuesday (plus some Fridays), and apparently I am just not used to that. Weds + Thursday are GME days (lots of meetings and typically catchup from what has built up over the week). Fridays are either clinical or GME depending on the week. Plus there’s call, but that’s not too terribly frequent (THANK GOD).
We just finished with residency interview season, which is a good thing because that takes up a huge volume of time and energy. AND it sucks up almost all of my Fridays, which means no good time for a weekly wrap up and things just . . . accumulate.
I don’t know. I actually really like the balance of work that I have most of the time in theory, but in practice it’s exhausting, especially when combined with the rest of life (kids’ homework! bedtime! etc!). There are a lot of 7:30 meetings all the sudden, which I really do not love. I also am at this weird level of leadership where I often feel squeezed from the top and the bottom, and feel like I often fail to make either side happy. It’s a constant push-pull. I’m also finding that all the sudden, I am often the one running meetings . . . which comes with pressure to prepare + perform. And yet I still often get spoken over / interrupted a lot (particularly by those with Y chromosomes . . . just saying . . . ) at said meetings. At other times, I don’t really feel listened to when I try to contribute.
I don’t know. Maybe I need a therapist or an executive coach. Or just an actual 2 week NON WORKING freaking vacation. (I had 5 days off between Christmas + New Years’, but they ended up being fairly stressful and very much polluted by work stress because we were in COVID surge crisis mode.)
(Which . . . in theory, I could take. I have 150 hours of accumulated PL time! But in practice, with patients already scheduled it is not so simple. Also, my partners are working like crazy too. We are hiring, which is exciting! But that takes time. I do have some short stretches of time off coming up, including 2 days next week and a week during the kids’ spring break in April.)
I don’t talk about work much here, because I obviously cannot share patient specifics or office politics. But the above is just how I’m feeling today. Maybe once I catch up a bit, it will feel different.
C will be in his first track meet this weekend! He is on the school team (it was open to grades 2 – 5, and they took everyone who wanted to join). They had a practice yesterday at a local track and I could not go, but I got to see the videos. He is a total beginner but watching him persevere through 400m just about melted my heart.