At work, I’ve been mostly cheerful.
I really don’t mind hospital work. I like feeling useful to other teams as a consultant. I have a sweet and engaged resident working with me, which is fun. Thus far, I haven’t gotten behind on notes and it definitely helps that I don’t have to rush home like I did when the kids were younger and our nanny’s day stared earlier.
It has also been incredibly refreshing to focus on call without the pull of GME or other leadership responsibilities. I am not sure I understood how much they added to the melee of those weeks, but I am glad to be able to just have one focus.
At home, I’ve been a basket case.
My ideal call lifestyle would be zero parenting duties. This is neither logical nor feasible. It’s not even that call takes THAT much out of me. It’s more of a mental load/mild ever-present anxiety thing that leaves me in a mode that makes parenting very challenging. The kids sense it, and I’m testy with them, and they’re testy back. It’s a loop!
Josh is generally patient with this but there are limits. (Also, he doesn’t fully understand my call stress because his job is objectively harder. There is zero debate about this — it totally is! For example, he was operating between 10p – 12a last night and he wasn’t even on call!! But his crazy job doesn’t make me feel more settled and less stressed about my own during call weeks.)
ANYWAY. It’s not too late to notice this and regroup.
Today is Wednesday, day 3/7. I am going to try to just notice the struggles I had over the past two days and move on. I believe I can do better and there is no reason not to try. Onward!
(Many) kid happenings:
- Annabel moved up a level in gymnastics. It had been a goal for her and it made me proud to see her sticking with something consistently.
- Cameron’s soccer is still super late. He still really likes it. However, Josh and our nanny are planning to do most of the driving/sideline sitting and he is mastering the post-practice 5 minute shower + bed routine so it’s doable. For now.
- The big kids are . . . having second thoughts about camp. It seemed like they were really happy last summer but one in particular is adamant about not going back all of the sudden. I am feeling weirdly disappointed about it but also conflicted on how much to push. (If they don’t go to sleep away, they will definitely be going to local day camps. But I did feel like the 4 weeks of relative independence and intense outdoor time was good for them.)
- The hamster is getting a lot of love and attention but we have some work to do to tame it!
- I got registration forms for school next year already – it was so weird to see forms for MIDDLE SCHOOL for A!!! AHHHH! And Cameron will move into Upper Elementary which is also rather mind-blowing.
- I’m supposed to make pumpkin bars for a school Thanksgiving event this weekend. Anyone have a fantastically easy recipe?
Well. That’s a lot. (And I left some things out that are not blogworthy!). This time of year is a lot!
Pix from last weekend’s farm bday party: