it’ll make your head spin

March 20, 2006

recent events have unexpectedly led me to call into question my own motivations and desires regarding my career. it hurts.
i am sure of the following:

i want to be with josh and be there for him.
i want to have a family.
i would like a job that would allow me to work part time to raise said family.

i am not sure of the following:

that i have th drive or desire to be a good scientist, or that i even have enough interest
that i really gave clinical medicine a fair trial

i am very good at filling whatever mold i’m supposed to be filling for that particular moment. so good that i can’t figure out what shape i really am.

yes, a midlife crisis.
at 25.