there is one other part of me that is sad. i just got an email from my mentor, who is in london, and was reminded of what a caring and supportive person he is and how lucky i was to end up in his lab. and now i will disappoint him. and that sucks.
AND there are also the other members of my lab, other grad students and post-docs, who i am going to disappoint as well, and i will miss them.
and that sucks, too. i hope that i will remain friends with many of them, because they are fun and smart and sarcastic and endearing people.
but it is still not a good reason to stay.