the other sadness

March 23, 2006

there is one other part of me that is sad. i just got an email from my mentor, who is in london, and was reminded of what a caring and supportive person he is and how lucky i was to end up in his lab. and now i will disappoint him. and that sucks.

AND there are also the other members of my lab, other grad students and post-docs, who i am going to disappoint as well, and i will miss them.

and that sucks, too. i hope that i will remain friends with many of them, because they are fun and smart and sarcastic and endearing people.

but it is still not a good reason to stay.


  • Reply cara March 23, 2006 at 10:47 pm

    sarah – i'm glad you've made a decision and are happy about it! while i don't have the balls to walk out of lab and never come back, i know that if i were to apply again tomorrow, it would be for an md, not an md/phd. don't think of yourself disappointing other people; while they may be disappointed that you're leaving, they won't be disappointed in YOU. because you were true to yourself and honest with them, and that's all anyone can ever ask for in a colleague, a mentee, and a friend.

  • Reply Bridgette March 24, 2006 at 6:06 pm

    Congrats on making a decision! I give you so much credit for it. I think I really need to sit down with my thoughts and sort things out, but deep down, I still think I'm not brave enough to rock the boat. I'm with Cara that if I had it to do over again, I'd just do the MD, but initially, I was interested in the PhD part more than the MD. If I had followed my instincts, I'd just be really miserable with nothing like medicine keeping me looking forward.So best of luck. And I'd love to know how the conversations with your mentor and your dean went. Just because I have visions of my own administrators having kittens.

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