September 26, 2006

i’m happy these days. and sometimes sad. and totally anxious, too. i don’t know what’s with me; i guess it’s just that i have a lot to be happy, sad, and anxious about. and you know what? it’s draining! (well, that and the getting-up-at-5-am-to-work-out-phase that i’m in right now. we’ll see how long that lasts.)

i am happy
that 4th year of medical school is a lovely break and actually a lot of fun
that i really like pediatric endocrinology
that i am married to the love of my life
that i have great friends and family living close to me
that my life-plan seems to make sense and actually seems feasible and realistic (well, except the part about having a girl, then a boy, then a girl, in perfect 2 year intervals. heh.)

i am sad
that the love of my life has to work really ridiculous hours and i miss him often even though we live in the same house
that we are going to have to move out of this house, which is going to probably involve a lot of work that i don’t want to do
that in 9 months i’m going to start residency and work way too hard for way too long and not get nearly enough sleep and probably age 15 years in only 3

i am anxious
that i’m taking on too much again (marathon training, studying for boards, interviewing, kaplan, and oh yeah — the rest of med school)
that we are financially challenged and my measly effort at kaplan is like trying to repair a leak in the hoover dam with scotch tape (where is the hoover dam, anyway?)
that the world is going to burn up and/or blow up much too soon
that the whole residency match process will land us somewhere where we won’t be happy

it’s official: i need a drink.


  • Reply Anonymous September 27, 2006 at 12:49 pm


  • Reply albert "I love September 28, 2006 at 1:27 pm

    it's on the border of arizona and nevada and supplies much of the power and water to cities as far away as california (but not las vegas because when the dam was built, las vegas was just a small settlement and electricity and water were not an issue). there is concrete poured a football field thick at the base. it's really very impressive. you should go. tomorrow.

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