i have the most boring dreams. josh always makes fun of me because they are just SO obvious! for example, yesterday (in reality), i didn’t get out of clinic until 7:30 pm — ouch! we were quite busy and down one intern, which meant i ended up filling that role and seeing a lot of patients on my own. i think i handled it rather well, though. i didn’t get terribly irritated and i didn’t even feel particularly rushed; instead i just kind of went with the flow and accepted that i’d be home a bit late. and it all worked out and i was okay with it, or so i thought.
land of dreams image from livecreations
but last night i dreamt that instead of the typical daytime shift, we had to work overnight in the clinic! in my dream, there were still more patients coming in to be seen at 6:30 AM and i was completely frazzled and exhausted. at one point, i walked into one family’s room where they were all sleeping and woke them up, only to find out it was a different patient i was supposed to see. i then had a complete meltdown, including yelling at one of the attendings (not one that had been there yesterday) that i just couldn’t take the abuse anymore.
so maybe by focusing on remaining calm and unmoved at work, i just channeled my frustration into my subconscious. is that healthy? i wonder what freud would have to say.
well, more like race fantasies, perhaps? i am having an inner tug-of-war with myself about mayyyybe, possibly training for and running the full marathon at outer banks in november, or alternatively a race in december. i realize that there are multiple life-issues which could get in the way (the possibility of reinjury, work, other stuff . . . ) but as long as i go in with these things in mind, would it really be so terrible to go for it?
still mulling it over.
my favorite running partner siobhan (now 10 weeks postpartum!) suggested choosing a destination race to run together in the future — LOVE that idea! one destination that is somewhat in between NC and CA that both josh and i have always been interested in visiting is austin, TX. so two potential races on the horizon are:
3M austin, january 24th 2010
zooma austin, march 27 2010
we’ll have to see what siobhan thinks of these possibilities! it would also be fun to meet up with jess — who could probably win either one of these races.
aaaaaand speaking of running i need to get my butt out the door! happy thursday!
workout: rest day (took it a day early because i was feeling sort of sore)
doin’ time: no time for doin’ time when you get home at 7:45.
reading: cramming on likelihood ratios this morning. confusing but cool!
I say go for the marathon, however, I would be careful of the plan that you pick. I'm sure you've dreamt of qualifying for Boston (what runner hasn't, right?). Also, I'm sure you'd love to beat your marathon PR. I've seen that you've followed "Daniel's Running Formula" and Pfitzinger in the past (although I think only Pfitzinger was for a marathon). Maybe if you leave out speed training, you may not get injured. Instead of picking a "challenging" plan, perhaps you could pick something like Hal Higdon. Nothing too "fancy". Also, maybe you should limit the number of days that you run. To a certain extent, since you've gotten injured marathon training the past few years, maybe treat yourself as a beginner.
Have 2 simple goals: Make it to to the start, and cross the finish line.
That was very long, and I admit, I've never run a marathon. I guess take this for what's worth to you :).
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I would always say go for the marathon…but make sure to pick a plan that fits your needs. 70 mile weeks are not necessary! A destination race would be awesome, and both of those races have really cool logos! (That's a good way to pick races, right?)
I feel a bit cheated when I have work dreams. While I enjoy work, I am there for long enough stretches when I am conscious – I don't need it invading my unconscious self!
I would go with the marathon. I agree that Hal Higdon's marathon plans are pretty conservative, and seem moreso designed simply to finish without injury.
please don't do the full marathon..you've already proved you have the stuff to do it and its not worth the injury…read in the extra time you would have to train