dreams/reality

August 13, 2009

transparent REM
i have the most boring dreams. josh always makes fun of me because they are just SO obvious! for example, yesterday (in reality), i didn’t get out of clinic until 7:30 pm — ouch! we were quite busy and down one intern, which meant i ended up filling that role and seeing a lot of patients on my own. i think i handled it rather well, though. i didn’t get terribly irritated and i didn’t even feel particularly rushed; instead i just kind of went with the flow and accepted that i’d be home a bit late. and it all worked out and i was okay with it, or so i thought.


land of dreams image from livecreations

but last night i dreamt that instead of the typical daytime shift, we had to work overnight in the clinic! in my dream, there were still more patients coming in to be seen at 6:30 AM and i was completely frazzled and exhausted. at one point, i walked into one family’s room where they were all sleeping and woke them up, only to find out it was a different patient i was supposed to see. i then had a complete meltdown, including yelling at one of the attendings (not one that had been there yesterday) that i just couldn’t take the abuse anymore.

so maybe by focusing on remaining calm and unmoved at work, i just channeled my frustration into my subconscious. is that healthy? i wonder what freud would have to say.

race dreams
well, more like race fantasies, perhaps? i am having an inner tug-of-war with myself about mayyyybe, possibly training for and running the full marathon at outer banks in november, or alternatively a race in december. i realize that there are multiple life-issues which could get in the way (the possibility of reinjury, work, other stuff . . . ) but as long as i go in with these things in mind, would it really be so terrible to go for it?


????????

still mulling it over.

my favorite running partner siobhan (now 10 weeks postpartum!) suggested choosing a destination race to run together in the future — LOVE that idea! one destination that is somewhat in between NC and CA that both josh and i have always been interested in visiting is austin, TX. so two potential races on the horizon are:


3M austin, january 24th 2010

or


zooma austin, march 27 2010

we’ll have to see what siobhan thinks of these possibilities! it would also be fun to meet up with jess — who could probably win either one of these races.

aaaaaand speaking of running i need to get my butt out the door! happy thursday!

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8.12.09

workout: rest day (took it a day early because i was feeling sort of sore)

doin’ time: no time for doin’ time when you get home at 7:45.

reading: cramming on likelihood ratios this morning. confusing but cool!