eating my words?
thank you all so much for your comments yesterday! i really appreciate the support, especially during a week like this. because of course, the week i get featured in a running magazine happens to be the one week that i just CANNOT get myself to run, cook, get organized, or really do much of anything other than work, sleep, and lie on the floor moaning about it.
exhibit a: me after work yesterday. unfortunately, this is a candid shot.
i feel like i’m in some sort of physiologic nadir right now. possible reasons for this include:
■ still getting over stupid low-grade virus. when will my lymph nodes shrink back to normal size??
■ post-summit letdown (it sounds like heather was experiencing some of this as well)
■ i need a vacation. the last one was 3 months ago, which isn’t so bad. but i’ve had a string of hard rotations (night float, wards, acute care clinic, and now NICU) since then, necessitating a recharge.
■ the weather is grey and stagnant (or at least it has been for the past few days)
■ i’m uninspired by my current rotation. i’m just not a fan of the NICU! i’m working with great people, but the work is just so repetitive and things don’t flow so well — it seems like we’re either bored, or flying around in a huge panic (like yesterday afternoon when everything bad started happening at 4 pm).
■ i am MISSING MY ENDORPHIN RUSH. since i’ve felt sick (and lame), i haven’t pushed myself to get up early and run this week. i’ve been sedentary since sunday! this break was necessary, but i think it has started to have a negative effect on my mood and energy.
whatever is causing this downturn, i need to get over it. i feel much better — and better about myself — when i’m my usual productive, organized, active, and energetic self. basically, i want my mojo back! i really do need a day off to sleep in and rejuvenate, but that isn’t on my schedule until august 29, which seems impossibly far away.
does anyone have any secret verve-rescuing strategies they would like to share? i could use all the help i can get.
workout: NONE — day 4 of slothfulness! i think i’m ready to end this streak.
doin’ time: what, martha? is there a problem with my greek yogurt/canteloupe/granola/almond butter dinner? because personally i thought it hit the spot.
reading: HA! as if.
I am sorry about your mojo being gone! I go through phases like that every now and then too–you just gotta be patient and wait it out and then all of sudden: you will have an epiphany and be motivated and energetic again! I promise. 🙂
It's hard to have mojo when you feel sick! I'm not a fan of naps (never have been), but they work WONDERS sometimes. Quick nap when you get home from work? Maybe just to get you through these last days until you can sleep in?
hope your mojo comes back — and fast! nothing i ever do makes it come back faster so i just need to remind myself that life is sooo cyclical and that this mojo-less period will be followed by an amazing mojo period
3. Book + bath + sparkling wine
5. Good, nutrious food
I hope you feel better soon!
Also, I read a while ago that you were thinking about maybe, maybe training for another marathon. I'll say this: If your heart is in marathoning, go ahead. Living with a cronic illness I never know if I will make it to the starting line either, but since I enjoy the training in itself that is a risk I am willing to take. And just because you were injured in the past doesn't mean it will happen this time again. Life is just TOO SHORT not to go after what you want!
Your dinner looks tasty. Just keep resting and eventually you`ll be back to yourself. This dreary NC weather definitely is not helping anyone's mood. You would not believe the amount of people we've had come into work this week who were just looking for someone to blame for everything going wrong in their life.