eating my words?
thank you all so much for your comments yesterday! i really appreciate the support, especially during a week like this. because of course, the week i get featured in a running magazine happens to be the one week that i just CANNOT get myself to run, cook, get organized, or really do much of anything other than work, sleep, and lie on the floor moaning about it.
i feel like i’m in some sort of physiologic nadir right now. possible reasons for this include:
■ still getting over stupid low-grade virus. when will my lymph nodes shrink back to normal size??
■ post-summit letdown (it sounds like heather was experiencing some of this as well)
■ i need a vacation. the last one was 3 months ago, which isn’t so bad. but i’ve had a string of hard rotations (night float, wards, acute care clinic, and now NICU) since then, necessitating a recharge.
■ the weather is grey and stagnant (or at least it has been for the past few days)
■ i’m uninspired by my current rotation. i’m just not a fan of the NICU! i’m working with great people, but the work is just so repetitive and things don’t flow so well — it seems like we’re either bored, or flying around in a huge panic (like yesterday afternoon when everything bad started happening at 4 pm).
■ i am MISSING MY ENDORPHIN RUSH. since i’ve felt sick (and lame), i haven’t pushed myself to get up early and run this week. i’ve been sedentary since sunday! this break was necessary, but i think it has started to have a negative effect on my mood and energy.
whatever is causing this downturn, i need to get over it. i feel much better — and better about myself — when i’m my usual productive, organized, active, and energetic self. basically, i want my mojo back! i really do need a day off to sleep in and rejuvenate, but that isn’t on my schedule until august 29, which seems impossibly far away.
does anyone have any secret verve-rescuing strategies they would like to share? i could use all the help i can get.
workout: NONE — day 4 of slothfulness! i think i’m ready to end this streak.
doin’ time: what, martha? is there a problem with my greek yogurt/canteloupe/granola/almond butter dinner? because personally i thought it hit the spot.
reading: HA! as if.