juicy stuff: a confession + a debate

September 1, 2009

blog musings and a confession
despite starting on a great new rotation, yesterday was just sort of blah for me. i spent most of the day wishing that i had another day off to recharge, which is silly because for once i’d just enjoyed a full weekend. luckily, vacation does not loom too far ahead — but i don’t want to spend this whole month just fantasizing about days off to come.

so here’s to making the most of each day on my endocrine rotation!

i really didn’t feel like doing anything yesterday afternoon, so i didn’t. i picked up some groceries, but didn’t want to make anything, read anything, or do anything at all, really. i had ricotta spread and crackers for dinner, rounded out by some almond butter and (dark) chocolate. i also went to bed without doing a lick of reading, even though i have tons of things i now want to (and need to) learn about for my new rotation (which also happens to be my future career).

and you know what? that part isn’t the confession . . . but here it comes.

i felt bad — not because of the poorly balanced nutrition content of my dinner, or skipping out on my ‘homework’, but because it meant admitting my slacker ways and not having any doin’ time picture in this morning’s post!

i will admit that sometimes knowing that i have readers to report back to DOES impact my decisions — once in a while, having this automatic accountability will push me to squeeze in a workout or do my reading at night when trashy magazines and my BED are wailing out to me with their siren calls. is this a good thing? or is it totally ridiculous? i’m undecided.

if you blog, have you experienced this phenomena? and if so, how do you deal with it? i think i am probably wayyyy overestimating the number of people waiting with baited breath for my next martha creation! because let’s face it, i haven’t exactly reached julie powell status yet, and even she went overboard with her focus on her dedicated readers. as josh would say, i need to ‘get over myself.’ then again, maybe it’s not such a bad thing to have an extra source of motivation . . .

food for thought.

fashion debate

thank you all for the lovely comments on yesterday’s post! i suspect you all are being nice and diplomatic, but i appreciate it nonetheless. i actually really liked getting the honest appraisal from anonymous, who didn’t like the drapey gray sweater very much (i still do, though, so i’m keeping it!). this is why my favorite person to get fashion advice from is my sister — she is NOT going to coddle me or mince words.

anonymous, i really did appreciate the feedback. but i don’t necessarily agree with your take on following fashion trends in general. i think this deserves further discussion, so here goes!

she (i assume you are female?) wrote:

“I don’t buy into the designers need to enhance their bank accounts by tweaking the jean style every year. “oh no, my jeans are not the latest approved style, I must be an old fuddy-duddy.” Unless they’re the high-waisted, tight ankle big pocketed ones of like 15 years ago I think you’re okay. The super skinny jeans of the latest trend are only good on one specific body type – which you may have – but most do not. I’m hoping we can rush the designers through their latest dictum of jean style.

Who up there is making these rules, anyway? I envision a secret Star Chamber of designers laughing maniacally as they institute the latest in fashion law whilst counting their piles of gold.”

you know what? anonymous, you sound a bit like my mom (although i think she may care even less about current denim trends)! while the last part of the comment may be true to some extent, it’s quite a cynical take. i still think there is an element of art left in fashion, and i take pleasure in reading elle and scheming about how i can make current trends work for me, even if i don’t always have the time or money to actually do so.

definitely NOT my legs

i don’t want new jeans because my old ones make me feel fuddy-duddy (and for the record — i stlll like my old ones, too!). i want them because i think the newer silhouettes look kind of fresh and NOW and i guess i enjoy updating my wardrobe every so often. fashion can be fun (especially in the fall, as noted on the above vogue cover!), and like it or not, my mood is elevated when i am wearing something that i feel particularly good about.

(which is why i plan on rocking a dress today.)

of note, i still have some things that i wear from 7-8 years ago — so i’m not exactly throwing out everything and starting over with each new season. that would be wasteful, very un-ecofriendly, and financially unsustainable, at least for me!

thoughts? comments? remarks? [mom, if you’re reading this, i know you will have something to say!]

off to do some reading
for real this time! it is september 1st, after all. we got an interesting consult about the use of estrogen for recurrent pulmonary hemorrhage, so i am going to look into that . . .



workout: 4.5 mile recovery run before work on the TM (it was raining cats & dogs!). pace = 8:57/mi, 0.5% incline. marie claire certainly kept me entertained enough.

doin’ time: nope! see above.

reading: another negative. see, i feel guilty writing this! i don’t know whether this is a good or bad thing.


  • Reply Anonymous September 1, 2009 at 12:14 pm

    Cute outfits in your previous post. I like fashion too, but I always think I can't pull a certain style off! I need Clinton and Stacy.

    How did you like running with the group?

  • Reply Anonymous September 1, 2009 at 1:02 pm

    I sometimes feel like if I don't blog every day, people will lose interest! Not that my blog is so interesting, but you know what I mean.

    As far as fashion, I prefer to get basics that are sort of always going to be in style and if I'm going to get something uber trendy, I'll shop at a cheap place like Forever 21 or Target so I don't feel bad if I don't wear it after a season. Styles do change. The jeans of 15 years ago that might make you feel like a fuddy-duddy now were once all the rage, you know?

  • Reply Anonymous September 1, 2009 at 1:03 pm

    I just totally contradicting myself on the fashion stuff, I just realized. 🙂

  • Reply Anonymous September 1, 2009 at 1:28 pm

    well i like that you had a slacker day yesterday. proves to me that your human 🙂

    as for the fashion, i agree that my mood does change and get elevated if i'm well put together but i don't seek out what the latest fashions are for the season. i tend to wear "classic" stuff that never really goes out of style but will never be on the cover of a magazine either. granted i do like getting all dressed up but i tend to still stick with more basics rather than outfits that i can really only wear once or twice

  • Reply Lisa Inglis September 1, 2009 at 1:48 pm

    hi sarah!
    i check your blog often but usually i just lurk…heheh…until now.

    on the fashion-tip, i completely agree with you. i think what i've learned is that there are two camps when it comes to clothes(probably more but for the sake of simplicity…): one views clothing as functional. Change is a source of resentment and feeling powerless ("if i don't subscribe to the latest style, i'm an old fuddy-duddy…new rules to follow..etc") and the other camp views clothing as Fashion/Art. Change is a source of inspiration and creativity.

    I can definitely say i fall into the latter category. I feel rejuvenated by the newness and excited by the NOWness and art that is inherent in fresh fashion. New silhouettes are inspiring and they allow you to see bodies, fabrics and shapes in new ways which, in my opinion, really expand your mind. Nothing is static in life and that can be either unnerving or exhilarating.

    I could go on and on..this topic really interests me…and I find it goes much deeper than clothes. Fashion is really about embracing change, art, exploring and growing and all of these can be fun but for some, it's intimidating, scary, and irritating.

    thanks for the eye-opening post!!

  • Reply Anonymous September 1, 2009 at 3:10 pm

    I feel guilty when I dont have a recipe or workout to blog about, too!

    I like fashion but don't have much money to spend so I try to buy trendier items from lower priced shops and buy basics from slightly better quality stores that will last many seasons. I dont feel guilty if I spend $20 on a top and only wear it for a year or so, but if I spend $60 I'll want it to permeate through at least a few fashion seasons! I'm working on the whole trying to still be fashionable yet still professional..I find it tricky and physicians, residents and students all have very different ideas on what this is!

  • Reply Stephanie September 1, 2009 at 4:44 pm

    I think it's more interesting to NOT have a "perfect" receipe each night. If we wanted that, we could just read one page of a cookbook each day, you know? It's interesting to see how cooking, exercising, everything else fits in to a REAL person's life.

    In fact, after reading food/healthy living blogs for about a year now, I find my tastes (no pun intended), changing. I don't enjoy reading the blogs that are the writer's sole job and that aren't "real." We all have careers, families, significant others, homes, and PERSONAL LIVES (hopefully!) that demand attention, too!

  • Reply Chelsea September 1, 2009 at 4:57 pm

    I think it's totally normal to have an afternoon/evening every once in awhile to just say "screw it". For me, taking a mental health evening always makes me feel more energetic the next few days.

  • Reply Meredith (Pursuing Balance) September 1, 2009 at 5:14 pm

    I feel that way too sometimes! I definitely think it's ok to take the occasional break. It's about balance, not perfection!

  • Reply EG September 1, 2009 at 6:16 pm

    Same anonymous from yesterday- I put up a name so you know who I am. Don't know why I didn't do that yesterday.

    I agree with the sentiment of fashion as art – and as others have stated it's about balance. The classics are tweaked a little from year to year – and can last several seasons without looking dated – but eventually they'll fall off the current fashion spectrum. I don't advocate ignoring the trends – I like to feel fresh and in step. But sometimes, the changes are just change for the sake of change and I don't think are inspired from anywhere. The fashions are cycling back faster and faster. Didn't we just do the 80's redux like 5 years ago?

    I will say that I disagree a little with Lisa that there are only two types and that "one views clothing as functional. Change is a source of resentment and feeling powerless…"

    I think the most rebellious rebels are the ones who truly ignore the mainstream including the current fashion rules. In fact, they are often the ones the designers follow and copy from. (My theory is that the young starving artists are thrift store shopping and the merchandise available is usually 10-15 years old. They buy it, tweak it themselves and voilá – the designers are inspired to recreate it into haute couture seven-figure outfits, which are distilled down for the everywoman).

    I do agree with Lisa that "Change is a source of inspiration and creativity." Well said. I would add, that change initiated from oneself is the most inspiring and creative (like tweaking the current style to personalize it) – and following a fashion trend doesn't necessarily offer the same authentic experience of personal creativity.

    True confession: I think my resentment about the skinny jean trend is that my body type is not made for it and I want it to go away quickly. I'm actually super skinny – size 2/4 – bmi 19 – but I carry weight in my thighs & calves – not really the best body type for the skin tight jean silhouette. It's really all about me.

    So further comments if anyone's still paying attention to my too long post – ouch on the Mom comparison – I'm a little older than you – but younger than your Mom – so maybe a few extra years of watching the fashion trends cycle through faster and faster have given me a slightly different perspective. "When I was your age, lassie…" Well I jumped on the new stuff right away, too.

    Oh, and, I think accountability – posting your plans & activities, etc. is a great way to psych yourself into following through with things (not that you seem to have any trouble in that camp) – but as others have said BALANCE – A friend once told me (quoting whom, I do not know):

    "Moderation in all things – including moderation."

    So, yeah, you can veg, recharge, do nothing at all (even go on a wild tear) – and it is OKAY – in fact it is good – and you don't even have to schedule it ahead of time.

  • Reply martinidad September 1, 2009 at 6:50 pm

    Hmmmmm…I am thinking if you read my blog regularly, you would see that "the hell with that" is a lifestyle choice, not a diet from being responsible…

  • Reply Jess September 1, 2009 at 6:51 pm

    I totally feel guilty when I don't have a recipe for the blog, or skip a day of blogging. A bit silly, but hey.

  • Reply Krista September 1, 2009 at 7:29 pm

    When I first started blogging I felt the pressure to have recipes up ALL the time and a new topic everyday. I (slowly) realized that it was my blog to write as I pleased without needing to feel pressured. Every now and again I have to remind myself that I'm in a different place than most…a little older, 2 kids, a hub,a full time job….I can't just get up and go…and that is OK!

    As for clothing…I stand by my rule that fashion NEVER over rules comfort. Ever! 😉

  • Reply Special K September 1, 2009 at 8:23 pm

    Oh! Guilt is a delicate balance between motivating us towards LIFE or shaming us towards inner torture.
    PLEASE read my recent blog on health obsession THANKS SO MUCH FOR YOUR POST TODAY!

  • Reply Sarah Hart-Unger September 1, 2009 at 9:16 pm

    EG — thanks so much for the lengthy comment. this might be the first real 'dialogue' that's ever happened in the comments section!

    i wanted to let you know the mom comparison had nothing to do with age — sorry about that! my mother just happens to be very anti-shopping, anti-trend . . . she's an extremely practical and non-frou-frou person. and i am pretty sure she was that way even when she was 16 years old (although i suppose i don't really know that for sure!).

    i have more to say as well need to organize my thoughts better. i will add, though that i think my body type is similar to yours, in that i am a size 0-2 but my thighs/butt seem to be where 95% of my body's fat cells want to live (i think most of the other 5% is in my arms). in addition, my legs are about 2 inches long. i once thought skinny jeans were a no go, but have since decided (under my sister's tutelage) that they are actually not a one-size-fits-all look. maybe you would be pleasantly surprised 🙂 not that i'm trying to push another ephemeral trend your way!

    thank you so much for your long (and thoughtful) comment! i also loved reading what everyone else had to say. keep the insights coming!

  • Reply atilla September 1, 2009 at 11:26 pm

    I agree everything but the droopy grey sweater looks great and are very complimentary looks for you. as for the no energy do nothing, rarely I get home so late and am so tired that I couldn't handle anything more than a peanut butter and jelly sandwich which can cure just about any malaise

  • Reply rebecca September 3, 2009 at 6:01 pm

    you could totally pull off those (skinny!) jeans.


    (the sis)

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