the pager project
on november 1, i mentioned my new goal of just taking a moment to breathe every time i hear the ring of my pager. i even changed the ring, knowing that hearing something a little different might help to decondition the ‘ahhh!’ response that had become pavlovian in me.
this was real! thank god those days are over.
it helps that the past 2 days have not been terribly busy, but they weren’t NOTHING days either [especially yesterday]. overall i am LOVING being back in the hospital. perhaps the point of having me dabble in basic science wasn’t just to reinforce how much i prefer the clinical realm, but it’s an undeniable fact. and that’s okay.
it doesn’t mean i won’t make the best of my upcoming lab time [after all, it IS more flexible and probably will be more baby friendly]. but i am 100% firm that when i am finished with fellowship [only a little over 1.5 years to go now . . . ] that i find a job where taking care of patients is my primary responsibility.
other things i would still like to incorporate in some fashion
✰ teaching in some fashion
✰ somehow helping trainees/other physicians to work on finding balance + being happy in their careers [although i need more experience first, it’s always something i think about]
and even with these lofty goals, i’d still like to try working part time while my baby [eventually babies, i hope] are young. at least for a while. i haven’t discussed it much, but it’s probably already time for me to start feeling around for future job options . . . yes already! since we know the area where we are headed [miami], i need to start doing some research on what might be available and get my name out there before things get filled. i can just email the practices and hospitals this blog post, right? heh.
so the last time i interviewed for a ‘real’ job [rather than applying for an academic position], i think i was 19. ummm. any advice is welcome!
workout: nada – rest day
leftovers for dinner are glorious. monday‘s mac ‘n’ cheese was still going strong.
reading: check. the part on 5-alpha-reductase deficiency reminded me of one of my favorite books. if you haven’t read middlesex, i definitely recommend checking it out!