a’s been doing better in the morning lately. yesterday i somehow was able to post AND run in the AM, and still made it to work by 8:45! but i just heard her cough now, so this may be a very short update.
i just wanted to say thanks to everyone for the input on half marathon training while breastfeeding. i think i’m going to go for it, or at least make an attempt. if the weekly long runs seem to be causing any ill effects [milk supply / time management woes] then i’ll just table my plans for the spring. easy enough!
and i’m giving myself permission to stop feeling guilty about running. it’s so funny — most people probably beat themselves up for not exercising, so i sort of have it backwards. but i can also see how too much time spent running/training really doesn’t make sense right now. as always, i’m searching for the right balance. <– overused word, but it truly describes most of my life currently!
speaking of life,
i was pipetting some noxious substance into little plastic tubes in lab yesterday, the shin’s “it’s only life” reverberating in my ear buds — and i was struck by just HOW HAPPY i am right now. seriously. a is just becoming more and more fun, and as it turns out i am really loving the balance [ <– there it is again!] of work/day care.
seriously. i did enjoy my 12 weeks of maternity leave, but i think i’m actually even more content now. while i cried when i first dropped a off, since then i have come to appreciate that in our case, day care seems to be good for both of us. i feel energized and more focused at work, in part because i have a goal of being as productive as possible [between pumping sessions . . .] so that i can make the most of my time at home. and i feel genuinely excited every time i get to pick a. up, and things like our evening play sessions and bedtime routine just feel that much more special.
i feel like ME again, but with this wonderful new dimension to my life — being a mother to this absolutely wonderful baby girl, and part of a little family. i never thought that i’d like this phase even MORE than my leave, but right now i think i do.
now to find a JOB for next year so that i can continue on this path!!
recent meals + workouts
josh ended up doing a lot of the planning for this week’s menu, and things ended up . . . fancier than usual as a result. still, i made sure he picked things that were easy enough to throw together on weeknights!