just . . . hanging in there.
just finished another call week — one which was usually busy. and i’m spent. looking back, i had 13 of the past 21 days of january on call for our practice! and now i know why i am SO happy i am usually on 1 in 4. i hope i can survive my last call week, set for 1/28-2/3.
annabel has a bad cold. so do josh and i. (*$&@#.
i somehow am 36 weeks pregnant. part of me is sooooo ready to . . . not be pregnant anymore. i just want to DEFLATE already and spend time snuggling with a tiny new baby. however, i also need time to prepare. we have 0 washed baby outfits, 382 extraneous items piled in the ‘nursery’, and 0 installed car seat bases [although i guess in a pinch annabel’s carseat would work for that first ride home, since it’s still rear-facing and goes down to 5 lbs]. and we do have a box of newborn diapers, so there’s that.
no change to the fact that i am really, really tired. continuing workout boycott — i’m done and just ready to start fresh POST-baby. this is so unlike me, but it is what it is.
i do not feel like i have had a spare minute for myself for the past week. hence the lack of posts.
i am sad that my HP is already being [somewhat] neglected. i will say that i’m still THINKING about the things i wanted to work on, which is better than nothing. but not rushing is really REALLY hard to apply when i really have the sense that there truly are not enough hours/units of energy to do what i’d like to do right now. [laura v. . . . help?]
i am trying to accept that perhaps annabel just needs less sleep at night [more like 10 hrs] and this lovely schedule [it really does sound lovely] is just not in the cards for us.
i ordered the green:
i know, i know. but i kept going back and forth and couldn’t stop thinking about this one. and so: trigger pulled. i will feel grown up traipsing around with this!
filled with plans, dreams, and excitement – but feeling like i just want a weeklong nap. that’s what life with a newborn is like, riiiiiiiiiiigggghhhhhtttt?
GOING TO BED.