still pregnant and still alive

January 22, 2014

just . . . hanging in there.


just finished another call week — one which was usually busy.  and i’m spent.  looking back, i had 13 of the past 21 days of january on call for our practice!  and  now i know why i am SO happy i am usually on 1 in 4.  i hope i can survive my last call week, set for 1/28-2/3.

annabel has a bad cold.  so do josh and i.  (*$&@#.

i somehow am 36 weeks pregnant.  part of me is sooooo ready to . . . not be pregnant anymore.   i just want to DEFLATE already and spend time snuggling with a tiny new baby.  however, i also need time to prepare.  we have 0 washed baby outfits, 382 extraneous items piled in the ‘nursery’, and 0 installed car seat bases [although i guess in a pinch annabel’s carseat would work for that first ride home, since it’s still rear-facing and goes down to 5 lbs].  and we do have a box of newborn diapers, so there’s that.

no change to the fact that i am really, really tired.  continuing workout boycott — i’m done and just ready to start fresh POST-baby.  this is so unlike me, but it is what it is.

i do not feel like i have had a spare minute for myself for the past week.  hence the lack of posts.

i am sad that my HP is already being [somewhat] neglected.  i will say that i’m still THINKING about the things i wanted to work on, which is better than nothing.  but not rushing is really REALLY hard to apply when i really have the sense that there truly are not enough hours/units of energy to do what i’d like to do right now.  [laura v.  . . . help?]

i am trying to accept that perhaps annabel just needs less sleep at night [more like 10 hrs] and this lovely schedule [it really does sound lovely] is just not in the cards for us.

i ordered the green:

i know, i know.  but i kept going back and forth and couldn’t stop thinking about this one.  and so: trigger pulled.  i will feel grown up traipsing around with this!

in summary:
filled with plans, dreams, and excitement – but feeling like i just want a weeklong nap.  that’s what life with a newborn is like, riiiiiiiiiiigggghhhhhtttt? 

oh dear.



  • Reply oldmdgirl March 10, 2019 at 7:15 pm

    Holy cow that kid on the blog you linked sleeps a lot! I thought we had it good. Whew!

    Allow me to empathize with your feeling like crap. I remember the last month of my pregnancy I had a horrible cold. I wanted to crawl into a cave and die. You’re probably sleeping like crap too because of it. Get well soon Sarah! You deserve it. All grand plans (especially workout plans) can fly out the window with no guilt at all when you feel like you must right now.

    If you give birth and still haven’t done the laundry, email me your address and I will send you clean baby clothes.

    On the bright side — only one more hell week of call left!

    • Reply SusannahEarlyBd March 10, 2019 at 7:15 pm

      thanks for the laugh on sending clean baby clothes! 🙂

  • Reply Laura Vanderkam March 10, 2019 at 7:15 pm

    Probably A’s nanny can do the baby laundry. You can order a car seat online and Amazon prime will get it to you in 2 days. You can pack A over to her grandparents’ place overnight so you can sleep. The next few months are really about doing what you can to make things easier on yourself while enjoying what you can!

  • Reply Chelsea March 10, 2019 at 7:15 pm

    Hope you all feel better soon. +1 to the suggestion of outsourcing some of the baby things that are hanging over your head. Could A’s Nanny or another relative take care of the clothes? I bet there’s someone for whom it would be a joy to wash and fold tiny baby boy things.

  • Reply Sara March 10, 2019 at 7:15 pm

    I am dying for that purse. Cant wait to hear your review on it. Definitely on my "to buy" list when I return to work.

  • Reply Jackie March 10, 2019 at 7:15 pm

    You had a keyfit right? It’s seriously the easiest to install seat ever, with either seatbelt or latch. You could do it alone

    It has a built in lock off, so just take the base out, put in where its gonna go, thread the seatbelt through the belt path, sit on the base. Pull the seatbelt as hazard as you can, and then flip the lock off. It won’t take more than 5 minutes. There are you tube videos if it’s hard to visualize. Don’t let that be a stress.

    Seriously, don’t stress about these things, I didn’t walk any clothes before my so was born. He wore them like that and has survived all the way to 20 months so far lol. All you really need is a few onsies and sleep and plays. Like a single load. The rest can be deal with later.

  • Reply Suzi March 10, 2019 at 7:14 pm

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