I’m on call this week. Whenever I’m on the pager, I feel like I’m never fully . . . anywhere. While at work, between progress notes my mind wanders to what the kids are doing with Josh (and whether anyone is stressed out by my absence — not sure what I even want the answer to be!). At home, I am constantly thinking about what is happening in the hospital: who needs transition orders, which labs are pending, whether I am doing the right thing with each patient.
It’s like in addition to decision fatigue, there’s attention fatigue. Eventually I get so tired of all of the flitting back and forth that I just want to zone out, dive into mindless internet chatter (aka social media) and rest.
Anyway. All of that is to say that uhhh . . . I’m thankful that I’m only “on” 20% of the time. And truthfully, I’ve had lovely patents this week and feel very confident that these distracted times feel very much worth it. From a practical standpoint as well as an emotional one.
Several updates, all fueled by a general dissatisfaction with my current state of affairs:
1) I’m considering a whole30. Can’t think of a compelling reason not to.
2) I’m officially sick of my phone. I am really desperate to just get OFF of the thing. I did really well with the moment app (to track minutes) for about a week, but then I fell off the wagon. Getting on.
3) Currently having a renewed interest in mindfulness. Started Wherever You Go, There You Are — which had been on my nightstand for oh, 2 years or so — this morning.
4) One might think that attempting to overhaul several areas of life at once is silly, but I think I actually do better with sweeping changes. 6/1 is the new 1/1!
On that note, while I am very happy with my Hobonichi Techo and have no plans to change planners until 2016, Erin Condren has unveiled the next Life Planner edition, and it’s very pretty: