still here . . . #itsaseason

April 19, 2018

Not only am I short on time these days, but I am short on energy too.  #itsaseason #itsaseason #itsaseason, right?

I guess I forgot how hard this part is.

*  *  *  *  *  *  *  *  *  *  *  *  *  *  *  *  *  
1) Genevieve is really cute.  As you can see from the photo below, she’s really not getting enough nutrition from me.
15 lb 4 oz @ 4 months // 88% weight, 70% height
HAHAHAHA.  This would be funny.  However, despite appearances it’s still a struggle and continues to be one of my biggest stressors.  I am somehow keeping up (although we just started some baby oatmeal, so I can no longer say she’s exclusively breast fed — ps I hate that term, it sounds so elitist).  But I can only pump ~12 oz most days (work AND morning pump) and — as a baby her size probably needs 25-30 oz/day, she’s up eating all night long to compensate.  
I guess this is “reverse cycling”.  It’s supposed to be a “great” way to maintain supply for working women.  Except a) being up every 2-3 hrs all night is really tiring and b) my supply seems to be slowly dropping anyway.
2) It’s hard to keep up at work when one is as chronically tired as I am AND constantly being stressed out/interrupted by the need to pump.  I am all for the Fifth Trimester movement and its positivity.  But you know what?  I AM NOT AS EFFICIENT AT MY JOB RIGHT NOW.  At all.  And I have concrete metrics to prove it, including the fact that I now always seem to be behind on charts and I have 987327 emails that need addressing in my inbox right now.
3) I am (gasp) not happy with my planner.  I KNOW.  It’s too small.  I sort of knew this might happen – after 4 years of using the Hobonichi Cousin, I took the plunge and moved to a regular (much smaller) Hobonichi.  I technically can fit all I need to fit in there, but it’s visually cluttered and much less pleasant for me to use.  I am moving into a new system (will show it once it’s here . . . .) to better suit this #itsaseason time.  
PlannerFail.  Yes, it happens to all of us.
4) On that note, I have 94 unread emails in my non-work inbox, am a month behind on budgeting, and feel itchy when I think about how many random commitments and important items I just haven’t had the energy to address.  
(Maybe you all can help me with one of them:  where should we stay, as a family, in Portland — potentially near Laurelhurst park — and Seattle?  Recommendations welcome if you’ve had a great hotel or inn experience in either region.)
5) I keep looking back in my own blog to figure out when I started to feel human again with A&C.  It appears that with A, I was doing lots of running and going on date nights by the the 4 month mark.  With C, it took a bit longer.  Both of them were sleeping really poorly at 4 months and much better by 6.  And I had the exact same milk issues with all 3.
all 3 together being cute
6) I am on call but thankfully it hasn’t been nearly as crazy as the last call week so far.  In fact, I may actually get a chance to get caught up (both at work + in life).  I am greatly looking forward to feeling  a little less behind in all realms.
7) Exercise has mostly fallen by the wayside.   Which is sad.  But I am determined to be back by the time G is 6 months.  I really miss running especially after reading all of the Boston Marathon coverage!  (PS I’ve alllllways loved Desi Linden — she seems so REAL and I particularly love that she’s as short as I am 🙂 )
8) I am almost done with Beartown.  Just woah.  I do like it a lot more than I liked A Man Called Ove.  And apparently there is going to be a sequel, which I will definitely read.
9) I’ve been listening to some new podcasts lately — will have to do a post on some newfound favorites 
10) It is time to pump.   I will leave you all with wise words from Mrs Adrienne Bosh:

“In between goals is a thing called . . . Life.  And it’s meant to be lived and enjoyed.”
Keeping this in mind through these weeks.  Even during #itsaseason.

No Comments

Leave a Reply

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.