And that’s okay.
I was on call this past weekend, and while it was actually not that busy work-wise, I just didn’t feel great. No one is sick here (and for that I am grateful! We’ve actually had a nice long healthy stretch in this house, which is nothing short of a miracle). But I felt distracted, tired, annoyed by many things. (Call. Hormones. A rough combination.)
You win some, you lose some, I guess! But it’s a new week! Some positives:
- I have a lovely resident on with me who is fun to teach and work with, and she has actually been quite helpful! Amazing to see the progression in our interns over the past ~10 months!
- Call ends Weds AM, so there is a light at the end of that tunnel . . .
- Next weekend is Mother’s Day and I’m trying to keep expectations fairly low but . . . hopefully something fun?
- We have the first ever meeting of our Physician Parenting Group at our organization (founded by yours truly + a friend who is a peds surgeon married to a neurosurgeon with two little kids spaced only 13 months apart!). Let’s hope at least a few people show up!
- I have a decent balance of clinical + GME time this week (though OMG I cannot wait for June when this balance improves further, more on that below!
I know I’ve alluded to it previously, but to clarify my upcoming work changes here — I’m stepping up as residency program director in June! As PDs go, I am definitely on the younger/greener side but I believe (and fervently hope) I have the spirit and organizational skills to pull it off!
I will be going to 0.9FTE as opposed to 0.8FTE, which means my days off will be reduced to every other week (plus my PTO, of course). I calculated that the 10% plus my PTO is equal to about 53 days off per year, which I think will be enough for me. I will also have less clinical call, because the GME role is a full 0.5FTE position. (That said, the GME responsibilities may be more likely to bleed into off times and there are some weekend things I will be participating in from time to time related to that role). I do think the GME part of my job will lend itself to a bit more flexibility which will be increasingly valuable as the kids get older.
I am really excited to take on the role — I think it will be a challenge, but a fun one. I have such passionate thoughts about training the next generation of pediatric physicians and it feels surreal that I actually have this much say in how our program is run!
Notably, I initially did not volunteer to step into this role when it initially became available. Honestly, I was concerned that my part-time status would make me an unsuitable candidate. But on on further reflection, my role as APD for the past 3+ years put me in a natural position for this progression. I am grateful that the leadership at my institution realized this and encouraged me to go for it despite my part-time status.
Okay. Workout time! Happy Monday.