First, work has been a lot. We found out our program filled on Monday (relief!). And very soon, I will find out who will be matching into our residency program (the matchees and everyone else will find out tomorrow, but we get a heads up to prepare presentations and announcement materials etc). I cannot wait to find out who will be with us!
This is the second year I have run the recruitment process and feel incredibly invested in who has decided to come to our program. However, last year this all happened at the beginning of the pandemic, so we were completely distracted.
This time it feels more suspenseful. Honestly counting minutes.
To all those matching, I hope you are very very happy with your result. (Between the two of us, Josh and I have had some happy match days and some rather unhappy ones. It did all work out in the end though!)
Then, there has been home / kid stuff. We received the results of the psychoeducational eval (kid to remain anonymous) and were given a diagnosis (that will remain nonspecified). The diagnosis was one that I kind of . . . suspected, but it was a little bit jarring to hear it pronounced quite definitively from a professional. I do feel like now I have a guide/path and list of concrete things we can start doing to help and that in itself feels helpful. But it’s also a lot to process as a parent.
Obviously, I would love to share more, in part because I recognize vague blogging is annoying, and also because — for better or for worse — I often process things here. Trutfully, when it’s my own #%(*&$, I have no qualms about sharing a lot (infertility! PMDD! etc). But obviously this veers sharply into someone else’s life and private information, so clearly I cannot go further.
(I do feel okay going THIS far, though. And I have to say that on my end my first feelings were of guilt like oh man, what did we do wrong. Even things that at my core I know to be unhelpful thoughts, like: if I stayed home, would things have been the same? But I’ve already mostly gotten past that.)
Rest of today:
Wait impatiently for match list
Some work admin stuff