WELL. This week has been rough. At least call is over!
I feel tired and sort of . . . put upon. The past few days, I have been extremely sensitive to people treating me like I am an endlessly giving resource, here to serve them at their whims. I am not sure if this is reality or more of a perception issue. I suspect it’s some of both. That is something to think about and reflect on. Maybe in a future therapy session.
I do think there is something about me that seems to make others a little too comfortable asking me to do things for them. Small but annoying example: texting me (non-medical) questions that are not urgent or could be looked up in other ways. And normally I don’t mind much, or perhaps even notice. But this past week it has felt like just too much. I really need a break. I’m losing my (*$&# 54 times a day and honestly feeling incredibly negative about basically everything.
I plan on taking a deep dive into my calendar and creating a plan to utilize more of my paid leave (PL) time over the next several months. I have about ~3.5 weeks of accumulated PL, and accrue about 29 days per year, so I could take 8-9 weeks off this year and still be fine (esp since I have no more maternity leaves planned in my future!). I am not planning on taking that much, but I could (should!) make sure I am taking more if I am feeling the way I am now.
In other news, Annabel is in the Keys right now (school trip with TWO overnights!).
Also, we are headed to Disney this weekend! (I suspect this may bother a small minority of readers from a pandemic standpoint. I fully understand and respect if you do not feel ready to take a similar trip, but if reading about others going fills you up with self-righteous rage, I welcome you to find other things to read so that you are not triggered.)
We are vaxed (other than G b/c age), boosted, and feel ready for this. We booked this trip for 2020, cancelled it, and finally rebooked a few months ago (post-Delta and pre-Omicron). I am looking forward to it though it definitely will not be the ‘break’ I am actually craving.