I still have them. It’s very unfortunate. I do have a prescription rescue medication that works fairly well but it definitely makes me feel groggy, so I often don’t take it right away. Sadly, every time I go to bed with a mild headache (thinking “surely this isn’t a real migraine, I just need to rest”), I wake up with a worse headache. This happened last night at 1:30 am and just . . .ugh.
Part of me wonders if my migraines are linked to the birth control I take to control PMDD, but when I consider stopping, I just think about the 14+ days of each month that I was completely miserable, and that doesn’t seem like a viable plan either.
I’m not sure there are obvious solutions out there, but I have spent my life as a healthy person and it feels odd to have any sort of medical problem at all really (I know I am incredibly lucky to be able to say that). I also know it could be so much worse. But I would really like to stop having migraines.
(I already had an MRI which was normal, but have not seen a neurologist or headache specialist which may be the next step.)
I am back in the Hobonichi Cousin. I have a good handle on my tasks + responsibilities, and I am getting the essential #*&$(# done. But I really wish there was more margin. I feel like I am always rushing to squeeze one more task/appointment/event into my day, and I know that this is absolutely my own doing.
I wish I had more margin in the clinical world; we are booked so far out that even moving vacation dates in August is going to be problematic.
I wish I had more margin to spend more time on my creative pursuits instead of always bumping up against a deadline (for podcast upload, script drafts, etc).
I wish I had more margin in my ENERGY to enjoy the evenings more with the kids. (Lately, headaches have been a barrier to that which is really sucky). I have read so little this year compared to my usual. I have watched almost no TV and I honestly haven’t even been scrolling much online. WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOING? I’m not even sure.
I wish I didn’t eat so many of my meals in 5 minutes often while standing up.