A Stoicism-demanding sort of day . . .
Yesterday was a bit tough. On paper, it shouldn’t have been, but Stressful (and ominous/mysterious) Emails struck again* and I felt disappointed by some things and I was really distracted and emotional. I am also a bit worried one of my kids is getting URI symptoms (please not COVID, not now!) at an inopportune time.
But I did think about my current readings on Stoicism and I do think it actually helped a little. I thought about how certain things are beyond my control and therefore not really worth dwelling on, and that even if the work stuff has the worst possible outcome and we do all get COVID, we will still be very lucky in the grand scheme of things, and nothing that truly matters will be impacted.
I also came to the conclusion that it is best to try to distract myself by moving on and really working to FOCUS ON my regular activities which is something I very much struggle with when things are up in the air or I feel a shoe about to drop. I may feel my attention drift over to the email, but I can gently notice it + redirect. Like an all-day meditation exercise . . .
*Side note – this email was sent on SATURDAY and thus I’m so glad I didn’t check my work email until the work week! Let this be a lesson (to myself) because it would have been even more annoying to think about all weekend.
Run (30 min + strides). 76F and 90% humidity. At least we haven’t hit the 80s at 6 am yet (though we will)!
Patients + notes
Email cleanout / work catchup
Home w/ kids
Relax & read while they watch a show
Kid bedtime (possibly solo again as Josh on call. I am ready for a night off of bedtime duties; maybe Weds).
Williamstown temps for our trip – basically the same as our winter. I feel challenged from a packing perspective! Everyone definitely needs jackets . . .