I was supposed to record a rather exciting podcast guest this morning, but they had to move the session (for a very understandable reason).
So. Today is the first day of non-clinical work WITH childcare I’ve had in what feels like forever. I’m enjoying a rather late start and trying not to feel anxious about it. I do have things to do, including some meetings, but I ended up staying up until 10:30 pm reading I’m Glad My Mom Died (which was pretty riveting) and decided to sleep in and delay my usual AM routine until after driving the kids to school.
I was thinking yesterday about how I’ve been telling myself the story that my BOBW/BLP/blog work doesn’t take up much time or isn’t a ‘real’ job.
But it’s not true. It is absolutely a real job. There is real income — not super-high income, but significant income that becomes particularly noticeable when it’s tax time! And there are definitely very real hours poured into these pursuits. It’s a FUN job, absolutely. But it is one. I am a physician but I’m also a . . . writer? “Content creator”? “Podcaster”? “Planning/organizing thought leader”? Definitely not influencer (nothing against influencers but I’m pretty sure you can’t be one without an active social media account).
Anyway, I feel like I’ve been doing this stuff forever (and to some extent I have) but since officially going part time I can truly own it. This comes with a little bit more pressure but it’s also kind of cool.
A running-related note
A commenter (Allison) on Sunday noted she was impressed at how much my speeds vary. I realized today that this is new for me, but I think it’s a good thing! Some runs are pure recovery – it’s just about movement, and a little heart rate elevation. Yesterday I did 4 miles at ~11:15/mi pace, with HRs in the 140s. 10 years ago I absolutely would have SCOFFED at that run. But today I did a prescribed tempo (2 mi warmup, 3 mi @ 9:10-9:15 pace, 1 mi cooldown) and the faster miles felt great. The super easy slow miles have a purpose, which is to provide some conditioning and recovery WITHOUT tiring me out in any way, to save my muscles for harder/faster efforts.
I feel like there is probably a larger life lesson here too: we can’t push all the time. Sometimes it’s GOOD to do less, push less, just recover. We will come back stronger and avoid burnout (and injury) that way.
And this makes me feel better about my slow run and today’s slower morning.