I am mostly caught up at work!! I was able to get my inbox to — not quite zero, but close, and I’m pretty sure I will be back to baseline by Friday if not sooner. I am grateful to my colleagues who put out a few (very minor) fires, and would totally go on a 2 week vacation again, if I ever accumulate enough vacation time to do so.
All that said, I felt really anxious going into work yesterday. I think I had unreasonable expectations for the past weekend, including those related to how I wanted our house look and feel like at the start of the school year. But truthfully I am realizing this deadline mindset was entirely artificial. I may be itching to organize and declutter, but there’s no one auditing the kids’ craft area or their closets other than me. And yes there are some emails to reply to in my personal inbox, but nothing is dire. I can get to it when I get to it. Planner recommendations are generally not emergencies. Even though sometimes they feel that way (and I get it 🙂 ).
I need to take my time and just do a little bit at once — I am truly overwhelmed by the kids’ messy rooms and piles of clothing that needs to be donated. But those little 15 minute decluttering sessions I was having success with last month will add up, and it won’t feel like so much. Also re: email, ultimately I will either catch up or declare partial (personal) email bankruptcy and start fresh (I haven’t had to do this, but I actually think it can be a helpful tactic in desperate times).
AND, maybe (maybe?) we will eventually get back onto a normal Eastern time zone pattern. Right now I’m entirely exhausted from a dysfunctional sleep cycle (both parents + kids) which is not helping matters at all.
On that note, despite physical surroundings that are very much a work in progress, I’m mentally and emotionally ready for school to start . . . now! I thought the post-vacation week off would be nice for the kids but every single unstructured day just seems to prove to me that they NEED some structure, and (maybe just as much) I need structure for them. I was feeling guilty about the amount of screen time they had over the weekend, but . . . honestly, we were all tired. I was tired, the kids were tired, and pretty soon everyone will be super busy and there just won’t be so much time for screens and lying around. A certain blog friend reassured me that a few lazy days will not ruin them forever (seriously thank you, I needed that!).