I’m sick today. Not deathly so (so, probably not flu?) and afebrile, so I definitely did not meet (unspoken) criteria to stay home from work, but I’m wearing a mask in the patient rooms and feeling sorry for myself.
(Feeling diseased and low-energy is just adding to my general low feelings right now. PP continues to be one of the places I can process and understand things, and one of the latest Ezra Klein episodes was pretty prescient.)
It feels ridiculous to be processing these tragedies and also going about our daily lives, but here we are, just like we were in 2020. (And speaking of 2020, I have learned that snow days have been turned into Zoom School in many areas. I sort of get the rationale, but this makes me feel bad for both kids + parents! Honestly this gives me such terrible flashbacks to Virtual Kindergarten. Just . . . glad that’s over. We don’t have snow days here and have yet to have a Zoom hurricane day but I suspect this is less likely due to very common power/life disruptions that occur with a hurricane.)
In other news: you guys, I am super tired. I was tired even before I got sick, because once again I need to work on the way I am scheduling my work, or the number of things I am committing to. On Monday, I did 3 podcast interviews (ie me being interviewed), also interviewed someone, and wrote/recorded an ep of BLP. Oh, and I did a walk ‘n’ talk that was lovely but was partially a business chat.
THAT IS A LOT OF TALKING and by the end of the last interview I swear I could not focus my eyes on the Zoom screen anymore; hopefully this host is not using video bc I probably looked vacant (though I think I sounded fine!).
I know — one of the main things I do is podcasting, and that requires a lot of ‘performance’ time but I think with the book launch stuff it has just been A LOT. Which is wonderful! I am so grateful that there are people willing to have me on their podcasts! But every one of those interviews takes a good amount of presence and energy . There are other important parts of my creative work too — like writing, thinking of new programs, brainstorming episodes or guest ideas, etc. But lately, those areas haven’t gotten much attention due to a lot of on-stage time and feeling like I’m jumping from one semi-urgent deadline to the next.
I DO think things will calm down a bit in the spring (well, March. Feb looks kind of nuts due to a call week and travel). COULD I continue to pitch myself to a slew of shows and stay this busy? Maybe, but I’m not sure the hunger for planning-related content will be as strong anyway so I think I am officially going to focus inward for a bit, content/creativity-wise.
I will make it through the rest of this patient day unscathed and hopefully tomorrow I can devote a decent chunk of my time to resting/recovering.
Oh, and I’m reading this:
I decided I needed a super light and fun read and so far this book (written in somewhat farcical style about an MLM takedown) does not disappoint.
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