I woke up and felt like me again today (well, as you are reading this, yesterday).
I wish I know what I did to right the ship. I honestly don’t know! I also don’t understand what caused me to feel so low last week. I had a lovely time with Laura in Vero. (Side note: she is in no way culpable for my mood. And neither is Josh for that matter, though he suffered the brunt of it). I should be past the point of any bad hormonal milieu. I just felt sad and stuck and couldn’t seem to find the off switch for a few days.
Some of my sadness felt linked to everything going on in the world, because there is just so much one could be depressed about, from the obvious (war, violence, political instability) to the insidious (AI . . everything) to the weird (the degree of GLP1 and plastic surgery in the Oscars photos is just . . wow).
But I mean, those things are still happening today and yet I feel better.
I guess I will just go with it!
A few interim updates
There aren’t many because I wasn’t gone for very long! But:
- A had her best gym meet of the season (and I wasn’t there!). She got 2nd on beam with a 9.6 (great!) and met all of her goals. BUT I did enjoy getting the results on video as I was seeing patients on Friday. Even in my funk that made me so happy.
- I did, in fact, go to the 80s concert! Even though I didn’t feel like it. AND, I had fun despite myself.
We went as a group of 4 women and had a really fun time — by the end we were dancing in the aisles! Unfortunately, Tiffany did not show (according to her IG story which I found by scouring the internet, she arrived 8 minutes late and the concert promoters/organizers would not let her go on stage. Poor Tiffany!).
(And I really wanted to see Tiffany! In a very genuine and un-ironic way. I used to LOVE her in my elementary school days!).
BUT, there was 2 Live Crew and Kid ‘n’ Play and some 80s/90s DJs and . . .
AND for the grand finale, Vanilla Ice managed to deliver.
- ALSO while still in #mood I decluttered with C (took multiple bags of random stuff out of his room), AND Josh caught the bug (he was inspired by the Dana K White ep!!) and started going to town on some of the random stuff piled on the floor. I mean, YAY!
- On Saturday we visited with family and then we had a somewhat meh dinner at Benihana (kids were not at their best, I was not at my best, and it just wasn’t my favorite evening. Our hibachi chef was very nice, though.)
- I watched none of the Oscars (but I did peruse the dresses via a link my sister sent me so we could gossip about them all)
- I am almost finished with The Great Gatsby. I KNOW. But book club is in 2 days, I have 40 pages left, and I really wanted to just POWER THROUGH.
And that brings us to today (Monday). I just did an echo so maybe there were some nerves about that, but hopefully all will be well.
I guess one thing I have to say is that I’m glad I just pushed through and DID STUFF ANYWAY, even if I didn’t feel like it. I am so glad I went to the concert, to Pilates (two great 2.0 classes in a row!), and even out for walks. I wasn’t happy necessarily while doing those things but at the very least they were distracting and now in retrospect I’m quite glad to have done them. Sometimes when my impulse is to quit everything and just lie in bed in the dark in the fetal position (probably with a doom-filled phone in my hand). . . it’s probably better to just ignore that and find something else to do with that time.
(Not saying for everyone, but in my case. At least, most of the time.)
PS: I am wearing bright green scrubs for St. Patrick’s day AND I bought Irish Potatoes (candy, not actual potatoes) to bring to work. (I definitely did not make them, I ordered them on Amazon but was like surprised to find out no one here had heard of them. I guess they are a Philadelphia thing because they were EVERYWHERE for this holiday growing up. And I remember thinking they were kind of disgusting and probably still will but it will be fun to bring them in to share.)
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I’m glad you’re feeling better. I think we all have these weeks when we’re all in a funk. I was so grouchy this weekend – just felt that life was a bit of a slog between working and making dinner. But this week, I’m returning to old work city to give a talk and have plans with pals (meeting a friend’s new baby) while I’m there, so hoping that peps me up a bit.
Well done on the decluttering! Sometimes I think the clear-out energy helps you feel a bit fresher, etc.
So glad you’re feeling better! Planning positive activities and going even though you don’t feel like it’s a resilient response. 🙂
Curious about your thoughts on the glp-1s. I know that several people I work with are on them… (I mean, 1) it’s obvious , and 2) they say so). One of them is already quite thin but swears that it helps her all-over-body pain, and I gotta say that feels like a super compelling reason, even though I feel better the further along in my menopausal journey I get. What makes me sad is the light is shines on how important being thin is to how people treat you. 🙁 I also wonder how it could impact bone health long term. Anyway. And yeah the world is a freaking dumpster fire right now.
Here’s hoping your tte results are encouraging and you continue the upswing in your mood! You’re not alone.
We’ve got plenty of people in our office on them too though I think generally all meet traditional criteria. Interesting about the pain! I prescribe them all the time too! In general I think they help a lot of people who have really exhausted other options for treating obesity. I don’t necessarily think they should be the first line for someone looking to lose a few pounds — they really need to be used long term to be effective, and I do think there are some teens that are asking for them who really haven’t done much to address lifestyle. I generally don’t gatekeep as long as someone meets criteria (but I’m not generally prescribing to teens off label with normal BMIs).
The hardest part about them is there are many very obese patients who i KNOW would derive huge benefit but insurance here often just doesn’t cover and they can’t afford it and it’s just frustrating for all.
Oh and yes I would worry about bone loss and long term muscle loss/sarcopenia with inappropriate or excessive use.
So glad you are feeling better! Our brains and brain chemistry are funny things. So unpredictable.
The most frustrating thing about the overuse of GLP-1s in Hollywood is that it turns people off. Then the people who really could benefit from them don’t want to take them because of the stigma — I get where they are coming from. I have a few patients who are outspoken about their positive experience which is amazing, but what most people here and see really amounts to abuse but we don’t call it that because it’s in the name of being thin. (Steps off soapbox)
yes that’s true!!! I agree with you that these meds when used properly are so helpful for many people. But it also plays with our minds – like if Demi Moore is looking like that on purpose is that like . . how we’re supposed to look ? It’s not a healthy place to be aiming for for most people . . .
One possible explanation for the mood: the time change! I think it impacts all more than we realize. Glad you’re feeling better though!
good point, definitely could be related!!
I’m glad you are feeling better. I bet some of it is related to the anniversary of your dx. It’s something you’ll always have to deal with and you probably thought more about it than you had previously since you wrote a post and talked about it on BOBW. And thinking about it brings back emotions. It was such a life-changing event so I think it’s normal/expected to feel down. I’m glad you’ve bounced back, though! It’s good to keep plans and be out and about to help ward off those feelings!
All right STOP. Collaborate and listen! Ice is back with a brand new invention!
That sounds like a blast although, I do find it odd to see “old” rockers still doing their original hits. I mean, I don’t want to see them do new stuff either. Maybe I just don’t want to see anyone? This comment makes no sense BUT my husband’s buddy went to see Guns and Roses and they did not play ONE OLD SONG. Not one!!! All new material. Which…is a real choice. I would be so mad, and he was so mad. But also I find something weirdly grim about the whole thing. I remember seeing – maybe it was on American Idol 25 years ago – the Beach Boys. At the time they were in their late 60s and it was WEIRD seeing them sing Surfing Safari or what have you. And then the guy from KC and the Sunshine Band played Get Down Tonight and it was one of the grimmest things I have ever seen.
HOW did this comment devolve so much. I don’t know, but I’m glad you’re feeling better. I have definitely had moments of despair lately over the world at large.
oh yeah, everyone there ONLY did original hits (I’m not sure most of them are even making new hits?). I would have been upset if it had been like the GnR concert you describe! GAH!!
I deal with anxiety. I can usually name the cause, but sometimes I can’t, and I’ll just be on edge for a week or two, and then it’s like a veil lifts and I’m fine again. Sometimes there is no discernable rhyme or reason to our moods. Yay being human 😛
My husband had his echo a few weeks ago and it had *me* on edge, so I vote you can’t definitely add that to your blame list (fortunately all clear!)
Your St Patrick’s Day childhood memory is Irish potato candy in PA, and mine is green bagels in MI! During the Tiffany and Debbie Gibson era, I may also add. One of my friends always brought them to school on St Patrick’s Day (her mom was a teacher in a different school district and would buy bagels for her classroom and her daughter/my friend’s classroom). Most kids in my class were Jewish so all we knew was the bagels were green because it was a holiday called St Patrick’s Day.
ha! I feel like I remember pink ones for Valentine’s (maybe?) but not Green!!! I grew up with a lot of Irish people in my hometown so they took the holiday quite seriously.
So happy to see this update, Sarah! Everyone goes through low moments and it’s frustrating when you don’t know exactly what brought them on, and then also aren’t sure how you got back out. It’s hard! But I’m glad that you feel back to yourself again.
I love st. Patrick’s day! As a Catholic of partial Irish descent, it’s always been such a fun holiday for me. I grew up right outside DC in MD and have never heard of these potato candies! So funny how regional some traditions can be.
I’m glad you’re feeling happier again–you’re such a positive person in general it must feel really hard when you’re not feeling well. Could have been any number of things contributing, as mentioned by other commenters. I love that you kept doing the fun things, even when you didn’t feel like it–probably helped, and now you have the perspective that this, too, shall pass!