All’s Well (Personally)

I woke up and felt like me again today (well, as you are reading this, yesterday).

I wish I know what I did to right the ship. I honestly don’t know! I also don’t understand what caused me to feel so low last week. I had a lovely time with Laura in Vero. (Side note: she is in no way culpable for my mood. And neither is Josh for that matter, though he suffered the brunt of it). I should be past the point of any bad hormonal milieu. I just felt sad and stuck and couldn’t seem to find the off switch for a few days.

Some of my sadness felt linked to everything going on in the world, because there is just so much one could be depressed about, from the obvious (war, violence, political instability) to the insidious (AI . . everything) to the weird (the degree of GLP1 and plastic surgery in the Oscars photos is just . . wow).

But I mean, those things are still happening today and yet I feel better.

I guess I will just go with it!

A few interim updates

There aren’t many because I wasn’t gone for very long! But:

• A had her best gym meet of the season (and I wasn’t there!). She got 2nd on beam with a 9.6 (great!) and met all of her goals. BUT I did enjoy getting the results on video as I was seeing patients on Friday. Even in my funk that made me so happy.

• I did, in fact, go to the 80s concert! Even though I didn’t feel like it. AND, I had fun despite myself.

We went as a group of 4 women and had a really fun time — by the end we were dancing in the aisles! Unfortunately, Tiffany did not show (according to her IG story which I found by scouring the internet, she arrived 8 minutes late and the concert promoters/organizers would not let her go on stage. Poor Tiffany!).

(And I really wanted to see Tiffany! In a very genuine and un-ironic way. I used to LOVE her in my elementary school days!).

BUT, there was 2 Live Crew and Kid ‘n’ Play and some 80s/90s DJs and . . .

AND for the grand finale, Vanilla Ice managed to deliver.

• ALSO while still in #mood I decluttered with C (took multiple bags of random stuff out of his room), AND Josh caught the bug (he was inspired by the Dana K White ep!!) and started going to town on some of the random stuff piled on the floor. I mean, YAY!

• On Saturday we visited with family and then we had a somewhat meh dinner at Benihana (kids were not at their best, I was not at my best, and it just wasn’t my favorite evening. Our hibachi chef was very nice, though.)

• I watched none of the Oscars (but I did peruse the dresses via a link my sister sent me so we could gossip about them all)

• I am almost finished with The Great Gatsby. I KNOW. But book club is in 2 days, I have 40 pages left, and I really wanted to just POWER THROUGH.

And that brings us to today (Monday). I just did an echo so maybe there were some nerves about that, but hopefully all will be well.

I guess one thing I have to say is that I’m glad I just pushed through and DID STUFF ANYWAY, even if I didn’t feel like it. I am so glad I went to the concert, to Pilates (two great 2.0 classes in a row!), and even out for walks. I wasn’t happy necessarily while doing those things but at the very least they were distracting and now in retrospect I’m quite glad to have done them. Sometimes when my impulse is to quit everything and just lie in bed in the dark in the fetal position (probably with a doom-filled phone in my hand). . . it’s probably better to just ignore that and find something else to do with that time.

(Not saying for everyone, but in my case. At least, most of the time.)

PS: I am wearing bright green scrubs for St. Patrick’s day AND I bought Irish Potatoes (candy, not actual potatoes) to bring to work. (I definitely did not make them, I ordered them on Amazon but was like surprised to find out no one here had heard of them. I guess they are a Philadelphia thing because they were EVERYWHERE for this holiday growing up. And I remember thinking they were kind of disgusting and probably still will but it will be fun to bring them in to share.)