i have yet to truly become used to josh being on call. on weeknights, it doesn’t bother me all that much, but on weekend days like this i have to admit that it just feels weird, and too quiet, and a little sad. i am an adult (i think); i should be able to go about my business without a constant companion. i should even be able to enjoy it a little bit, as long as nights alone are the exception rather than the rule, but i can’t quite relax on my own.
maybe i just need to practice more.