December 10, 2008

they might as well rename december month of slack as far as i’m concerned. i don’t know what’s with me, but i am definitely in some sort of life rut at this moment! i think part of the problem was that my chopped up week of vacation didn’t feel like a real vacation and now, i’m barely working hard enough to feel like i’m really doing that either!

i’m not really complaining, i promise, because i realize it is probably every resident’s dream to finish work each day in the mid-afternoon hours. and i like it too! but interestingly, i think i had gotten used to the idea that residents are needed and important in some way. unlike in medical school, generally it would matter if i waltzed out of the hospital on a whim before the day had come to a close. after all, most months there are even people on as backup if you’re sick!

except right now, i feel decidedly un-needed. i keep getting pulled for various orientations and trainings and when i return to clinic, it is apparent that they’ve done a-ok without my services. i know i’m there to learn — and i am learning — but i think that feeling extraneous is just another ingredient in my current laziness stew that is keeping me from being my usual motivated, efficient self.

and i miss my usual self. i like her better than the droopy-eyed, slack-jawed, slow-moving version that has been inhabiting my body since thanksgiving or so. usually a new calendar year and the urgency of 20 or so resolutions brings her back, but i don’t want to wait that long.

maybe i could lure her out with boots. ooh, they’re even on sale!!

1 Comment

  • Reply Old Jenny March 10, 2019 at 7:30 pm

    Maybe set some fun personal goals, now that you have the time? Like catching up with friends, prepping a really extravagant holiday season, take 20 sec off your interval time when running or something. Or just take long baths, read and spend time blogging here!

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