School is closed. Spring break was slated to start the week after next (3/23), but we didn’t find out until 4:30 pm today that the kids will not be back until further notice. Cameron was happy. Annabel cried.
(She also correctly insinuated that we would have to postpone her birthday party. Poor kid! I promised her we would still do it, just another month, whenever it is safe to do so.)
Work is . . . I don’t know? Obviously, I still have to do the GME part of my job. And I know my residents will need extra guidance now. Though I don’t necessarily need to be physically present IN the hospital to do all of that.
Clinically, our outpatient services have not made any changes yet, which is surprising to me. But maybe they are coming. I am really hoping — for the safety of our patients, staff, and for the collective good! — that we can move some of our care to telemedicine (and postpone non-urgent things). My next call week isn’t until mid-April but obviously if one of my coworkers gets sick (inevitable), I will be helping to fill in.
And you guys, emotionally, I AM REELING. As are many of us, obviously. There’s just so much uncertainty and the fear for older loved ones and the unsettling feeling that everything is different now, with the added layer of worry about when my workplace will become mayhem.
(Hoping not, but what I have read about in Italy with the vent/bed shortages is so heartbreaking. I hope it starts to improve there quickly.)
BUT. All of that said (and it was a little therapeutic, so thanks!), I need to buck up. Because we have 3 kids who will be at home, and they don’t need to remember this time as the era when mommy sat slack-jawed and crying while refreshing CNN every 30 seconds (I mean I’m not there yet but . . . maybe closer than I should be). Because panicking isn’t going to help matters. And because — like it or not — this is life, and the new normal, for a while.
Things I plan on doing:
Posting a lot here. I considered a written journal, but — what is this blog but the longest most elaborate journal ever? Plus there is power in sharing experiences in trying times.
Doing some “projects.” I am going to dive back into my reading list and also am considering just jumping into 80 Day Obsession (I might die, but whatever, I can modify and it would be Something to Accomplish while waiting this thing out)
Cooking more. Maybe we will allow ourselves takeout once in a while, but generally I think that social distancing means hunkering down & cooking most nights. Our nanny will hopefully still be able to come (well, if not, work is going to be QUITE challenging) but it will be all up to me on weekends and during spring break.
Meditating. I think it’s probably a good time to restart this. For many people.
I liked this post a lot, and I need to follow the advice about choosing a structured time to listen to / look at news. Maybe a twice daily check in — morning NPR podcast & one time-limited evening online browse. I also like OMDG’s idea of buying an old school NES. Bring on Dr. Mario . . .