Yesterday was one of the latter.
Did the “new month” energy wear off this quickly? God, I hope not. But at the same time, I had no desire to get up when my alarm went off. NONE.
I am not excited about more Webex calls.
I am not excited about a number of things related to work, but I cannot post them here. But I will admit that I spent a lot of my day yesterday in front of my computer, cursing.
I am not excited about dragging my kids outside (they are getting more reticent when it comes to going for walks/outside time. Probably because they are bored of it and probably also because it is starting to get hot. We should probably use the pool more but that requires a parent going in b/c of G and that doesn’t always sound appealing, unless the parent is Not Me.)
AND, I’m not even all that excited for work to return to ‘normal’ because I can already tell the backlog of non-urgent patient issues pushed aside will be like an avalanche.
(ALSO will my kids be home all summer!?!?)
1- Please don’t ream me for the privilege or lack of perspective in this post. I recognize we are very very lucky to be healthy and with jobs. I have friends that have close relatives that are very sick. At the same time, I am trying to write about my real feelings day to day in this series and I cannot ignore the fact that sometimes it all just feels like it sucks. (Though the same can be said for non-COVID life, too.)
I liked Gretchen Rubin’s take on this yesterday: Is It Selfish, Shallow, or Frivolous to Worry About Our Own State of Mind During a Time of World Crisis?
2- Despite my complaining above, I did drag myself out of bed and am going to attempt a workout in a few minutes. Trying to stick to my ‘checklist’ does help.
3- I am trying NOT to make any sweeping decrees about my career choices right now. Is my job particularly FUN right now? No! It is not. But this is a very unique (and hopefully temporary) situation and doesn’t necessarily mean that I need radical change. I don’t think so, anyway.