It’s weird. One would think things would get more tiresome/stressful as the current stay-at-home measures have continued. BUT, the opposite has held true. So far, anyway.
Maybe this is because the dread of what lockdown would be like was worse than actual lockdown. Or it’s certainly possible that I’ve been busy enough with work this past week not to care. I did get to sleep all night last night which was wonderful and probably part of why I am in a good mood this morning.
(Please note, I am sure I would feel . . . quite differently if I were attempting to work without childcare. I am stressed out just thinking about it.)
((Also note I am not flying blind to the fact that this time just flat-out sucks for many. But this blog and current series of posts is chronicling my experiences and thoughts; there are plenty of better sources for news and political commentary. If you need a rec, my current favorite remains NPR’s Up First.))
BUT. All that said, I am continuing to take comfort in our little routines. I am finding that I am not missing some of the hustle and bustle of our previous life — the optional extracurriculars, in particular. Will I allow the kids to participate in activities they love when it is possible/safe? Absolutely. But I am not sure we will ever return to our prior level of engagement.
I guess I miss travel (and the excitement and learning that comes with work conferences). But I am also fully beyond my initial disappointment. I’m not finding myself as attached emotionally to future trips which may or may not occur.
I am comforted by the fact that I can still write, read, socialize online, do my workouts, go outside for a walk (yes I know many cannot currently do this or have to wear masks on a neighborhood walk — I am not taking it for granted). I am happy (and somewhat surprised) that the kids have been on fairly good behavior most of the time (WHICH COULD ALSO CHANGE . . .) and wonder if it’s simply because they are better rested and less stressed/overextended by a packed activity schedule.
Telemedicine has its pain points but I am enjoying the challenges of trying to streamline it and figure out what to keep from virtual visits going forward.
So, I’m feeling pretty good today, on Day 35. We just found out that our schools will not reopen this academic year, which I was anticipating. It’s actually (to me) a relief for this to no longer be up in the air. I am fervently hoping it will be safe for the kids to resume in the fall. (And I do wonder about summer camp, but am willing to accept whatever needs to happen. Once again, I recognize I’d be far FAR less zen about this if we didn’t have our childcare.)
- BB 21DFX Yoga & headspace, preferably both before kids up
- Breakfast & hang out with kids
- Go to hospital – see pts, notes, some pt follow up calls, and a few GME-related tasks
- Hopefully home by 4ish.
- Dinner: Fartlek Chili from Run Fast Eat Slow, tortilla chips, avocado
- Clean up & prep for new week. Maybe fam walk outside.
- Read while kids watch Disney+ (I want to start The Flatshare!)