Yesterday was lovely (from a personal standpoint; the news speaks otherwise and I did not fully immerse myself in it but did not entirely avoid, either. For what it’s worth).
ANYWAY. I am not planning to do a lot of writing here on the current state of affairs and I still maintain that constant news consumption is not good for ANYONE’S sanity, including mine. But — for the record — I plan on doing more self-education, working on my own children’s anti-racism education, and reading from this circulated list. I encourage you to check it out if you haven’t already.
(Side note: I also personally feel called to do some work/study on racial disparities in the field of medicine in which I practice. So important and yes — I’ve seen it happen, where certain treatments seem to be reserved more for those with certain demographic features. I don’t necessarily want to go into specifics but . . . if I am able to get something published I will certainly share!)
All of that said — yesterday was lovely. And that is actually — well, I guess I want to express that there have been many days throughout my now 8-years-long parenting journey when I really did not enjoy many weekend days. Things felt overwhelming. I didn’t feel like there was any time left for me unless I specifically arranged childcare, and then I felt torn/guilty about it.
Somehow things have improved. I think it has to do with one major factor: TINCTURE OF TIME. As in — the kids are getting older. Even G can (and does) entertain herself and I don’t have to be hovering over a kid every waking moment of the day. I am writing this post right now while G&C are sleeping and A is eating breakfast. Yesterday Josh and I managed back to back workouts (I did BB and then he ran) while the kids played.
I recognize we are hitting a sweet spot (no infants / no puberty!) AND that it’s actually easier to manage 3 kids when you aren’t trying to fit in (any) outside activities. But I’m pretty thrilled to be enjoying life more than I did when I had babies. I know that isn’t true for everyone but it is true for me!
(This post partially inspired by a dream I had last night that I was pregnant with #4, accidentally. It was . . . just woah. And I was glad it was a dream.)
❏ BB Workout (short cardio flow today – only 30 min!)
❏ 3 more months of photobook pix (I did Jan – March yesterday!)
❏ grocery shop / meal meal plan
❏ kids outside again
❏ create monthly goals
❏ read more of Moscow
❏ donate rest of May’s charitable giving budget to anti-racism fund
(Got all of yesterday’s list done PLUS a DIY mani-pedi!)