I don’t want to do any of it right now.
I don’t want to spend another weekend following the same template we have for months. I don’t want to do my meditation or my Beachbody. I DEFINITELY don’t want to organize my house. I don’t want to read while being interrupted every 3 minutes. I listened to Cal Newport’s podcast and then felt like a full on failure when I was not able to complete my “deep work” project yesterday (because I was texted or emailed or called basically every 5 minutes the entire day). Even though I “time blocked.”
(PS time blocking doesn’t work if you don’t actually have control over your time and are expected to be available for everyone always.)
I just erased an entire paragraph about work things that are terrible and stressful because that does not belong on the internet.
There is no end in sight and I’m getting tired. I need a vacation. There isn’t going to be one.
// end rant from privileged person in objectively very lucky situation but who is getting really #*$@# tired.