Yesterday I had just about had it with . . . well, basically everything. I felt tired, stressed, sad, and generally OVER the current situation. But I did one thing right: I made the decision by noon that I was just going to give myself a full on BREAK.
Clearly I wasn’t able to pack up for a solo island vacation (though that sounds amazing). Instead, my break was freedom from my self-imposed goals, habits, standards. I did have to work, generally wrapping things up before the start of a week off (!). Away messages were set, inboxes were (somewhat) emptied. But I will admit I did not work with the same intensity I usually do.
I slept in (until 7, let’s not get crazy)
I did not work out.
I did not meditate.
I did not fill out the daily page in my bullet journal (I KNOOOOOW!)
I ate whatever the #*#@!(# I felt like (including a Haagen Dazs bar, obviously)
The only thing I read was the start of Sex and Vanity (compelling so far, I love Kevin Kwan!)
I walked a total of ~3000 steps the entire day (says my Garmin)
I may have watched an episode of Schitt’s Creek during ‘work hours’. (Not saying I did . . . or that I didn’t)
I let the kids start evening screen time 40 minutes early so that I could clean up the house in peace
I spent a restorative hour or so listening to light and comforting podcasts (Forever 35, Girls Next Door, Spawned, Edit Your Life) while writing things in my bullet journal. It turns out this is a very relaxing combo of things to do for me. I spent time thinking about how I’d like to spend this week OFF (!!!) from work. FUN FACT: I have not had more than 1 work day off in a row since winter break, which was not particularly fun since Josh had to work the whole time.
And you know what? I do feel better today. Much more motivated. Excited to make the most of this much-needed time away from my workplace. Excited to have a week off where my husband is actually off too (it has been a year since this has happened).
SO, a reminder to myself: sometimes a great habit is to just say #$(*@&#-IT and abandon all of the ‘good’ habits that are self-imposed and just wallow in the experience of a less-than-ideal day. I feel better now and zero regrets.
ONWARD AND UPWARD AND OMG I’M ON “VACATION”!!!!