I have a great job. I really do. I honestly can’t think of a better combination of responsibilities or a superior schedule to the one I have right now. I have enough flexibility and space for deep work to keep me happy (without having TOO much — turns out I really do like to have some structure).
I truly enjoy my patient care days, which are usually Mondays and Wednesdays. But then I’m also grateful to move onto other projects on the other days!
Seriously, I feel so lucky. In the words of Liz Craft from Happier in Hollywood: “It’s a fun job and I enjoy it.”
The only part of my job that I don’t always appreciate or enjoy is (duh) . . . CALL. Because the ratio aligns with my clinical FTE%, my call weeks are less frequent now — on par with what endocrinologists at some of the larger academic centers take. Approximately 6 weeks/year. Really not bad!
Yet when it looms on my calendar, I don’t usually feel gratitude. However, I will never stop trying to turn things around. My success with drastic change in the technology use realm proves to me that I CAN DO HARD THINGS. Including (I hope) change my mindset and attitudes around call.
One wise reader previously mentioned that she had managed to reframe her narrative around being on call (including being constantly interrupted/woken up at night). It is a privilege to have a job where your expertise is such that you can actually help others and make a difference, even when they are scared and without guidance at night. Her comment:
“I am in academic medicine where things like doing research and publishing papers in medical journals count for the most weight when it comes time for promotion.
But I am also in a clinical position where I am on call 24/7 for 50% of my time (usually every other week or every two weeks) I used to resent getting interrupted by my pager going off, but then I decided that hey, more than 50% of my time (I run outpatient clinics too) is supposed to be spent with patient care, teaching residents, and BEING THERE for my colleagues. People call me for my expertise so I decided to EMBRACE the interruptions.
I remembered what it was like to be an intern in the emergency room having to call the subspecialist for advice. The perfect situation would be when they answered promptly, let me explain the situation, didn’t make me feel stupid, answered my question in a clear way, gave me a plan for the patient that was doable, and even taught me something during the call. After I started being ALL IN for getting paged, I felt my days (and nights!) were more meaningful and enjoyable.” — NeuroMD
I mean first of all – she is on 24/7 call 50% of her time, which puts my dinky little percentage into perspective. And second of all – what an amazing and inspiring answer. I am going to try really hard to embody her sentiments during this call week, which begins in ~2 hours.
Also, it’s election day. I am going to continue to operate under the assumption that we won’t know anything for weeks so that I will not be disappointed. But I guess we will see!
Hopefully not another “The man wan” video. From November 2016 . . .