1- Packed day follow up. I did, as many suggested, order takeout delivered to my desk. (Bringing lunch would also have worked, but I didn’t manage to do it!). Like some of you commented, I refuse to eat on camera. But I had a few minutes between the 11:30 meeting and the 12:30 meeting, so it worked out.
I made it through and ended even with some minimal incidental margin as meetings wrapped up slightly early. It has not been a white space kind of week, though. Next week does look somewhat better.
I honestly think part of it is that June is an incredibly busy time for the GME part of my job. I know from experience that July/Aug will be slower.
2- Speaking of GME . . . our first ever resident graduation ceremony is today. It is finally hitting me that our first class is truly almost out the door (though 2 are staying – one as chief + one in the hospital med division!). I am absolutely going to cry. It’s a big moment for them but also feels momentous for me. I have learned so much over the past 3+ years. I feel so lucky that I get to do this work. And I hope I will get better and better at it over time.
3- NIGHTMARE. On the flip side . . . I had a nightmare about losing one of my children so vividly last night that I felt traumatized upon awakening. (I also woke up midway through and then RE-DREAMED the same $#*&$@). It did serve the purpose of reminding me that the health and safety of my family is really above ANYTHING else in terms of importance and priority. Nothing else even comes close. And I’m so so glad they are are all (IRL) okay.
4- Annabel is done with school!!! Goodbye 3rd grade, hello 4th. She has a week of horseback riding camp next week while the other 2 finish. And it was a bittersweet end to a very weird year as she will be going to a new school (where C&G go) next year. I’m so thrilled to have one calendar + drop off. She very much wants to prioritize remaining close with her main BFF, which I think is doable since a) they live close and b) I am friends with her mother, so group activities have been fun. Next year will be really different though and she’s overall excited and looking forward to the change.
5- Podcast rec! Another fascinating ep of Pantsuit Politics. About midway through there is an interview Julia Edelstein, the editor of Parents magazine, and she shared her own pandemic experience as well as the trends she has been staying on top of in her professional role. (Spoiler: things have overall NOT been good for the female parents in particular). The guilt about having childcare during the earlier lockdown days resonated with me. AND the complicated feelings of guilt / shame about getting COVID as a family! It was a good ep.
Run 6 x 1K intervals.
Clinical catchup blitz. (Notes. Calls. Etc. It’s bad. But it will be fixed today!)
Some GME work (Milestone submissions, look at ABP grad certification – it’s my first round, hopefully it’s not too onerous . . .)
Home w/ kids & probably early to bed because here comes another solo parenting weekend!
Update: And after I wrote all that, got a text mid-run that our nanny is sick. GAH. Well. At least my nightmare gives me perspective. Could be much worse.