I have no margin right now. It’s not a permanent thing – it relates to some finite commitments (talk I will give next Friday at a large system-wide meeting), the fact that it is residency interview season, and the whole “HOLIDAYS ARE APPROACHING” panic.
Yes, panic. No, I’m not feeling full of fun and coziness about it. I feel completely overwhelmed. Because it’s not like work or the rest of life is going to stop while I have to figure out:
Office gifts (clinical + GME side)
Resident holiday party (I am hoping our program administrator will take the lead on on this, but it’s still going to require some work from me — especially spreading the word among faculty)
Family gifts (mostly just nieces/nephews) + Hanukkah gathering (though I have already decide this will be a takeout/catering situation)
G’s birthday party (will be outdoors, at a local playground shelter. Glad we are doing this, but now that it’s coming up I’m panicking)
Josh’s bday present
Holiday/New Years’ cards (I like having sent them, but I have come to detest the process)
I will add the fact that this year’s big winter holidays feature: call week for me (Christmas) followed by call week for Josh (New Years). And during this time, our nanny will be on a (very well-deserved) vacation on a tropical island!
ALSO. We are traveling for Thanksgiving but Josh is also on call for much of that holiday week, and I have to strategically schedule COVID tests and decipher quarantine rules.
Couple this with the fact that I am in the thick of residency interview season (busy!), would like to submit an abstract to a meeting with a resident (due mid-Dec), and we are interviewing for a new physician team member (yay, but also time consuming!) — it is just A LOT.
And when too many events cover one’s calendar, they start to feel un-fun even if they are technically supposed to be fun.
AND AND AND I have literally nothing good to wear to these events. Well, not nothing. But I’m not excited about anything in my closet and my less forgiving outfits are not going to work — and I haven’t had energy to put into that, either!
PLUS we are under contract on a house (I actually forgot this minor detail when I was writing the above) with a planned closing in early January.
So, yeah. I guess one might question why I am therefore bothering to write long blog posts about these things rather than getting a 5 am jump on my inbox, but for whatever reason, I just don’t want to give this practice up.
Happy Thursday. And Veterans Day!