One call last night @ 10 pm. Not a bad night!
I am trying to work on neutralizing my reaction to the tone of my paging app. There’s always a first nearly involuntary feeling of: “#(%*#$&!” because it feels like a forced interruption, either from sleep or from whatever else I’m doing. A loss of control over my time.
(Incidentally, I have the same reaction when I hear a kid up earlier than they are ‘supposed’ to be up, like G at 5:50 am yesterday!)
However, a reframe is that when I am on call, answering these texts/rings are my primary job. Instead of seeing them as interruptions, I should be grateful that I have the ability to do other things while on call (read, sleep, work out, time with family, etc). I can also be grateful that most of the time, I am not on call!
I also have to avoid letting my tendencies to #uphold (and tighten my upholding in times of stress – which is a thing) add false pressure to my call days.
As in: while it’s great to generally stick to habits that serve me, deviating from them in when I have other work to focus on is completely okay (and sometimes beneficial).
In other news, our flight home was super easy! I plowed through most of American Royals II: Majesty and have decided that all non-royal fiction reading will need to be put on hold until I am done with this series (there are 3 in the series plus a prequel).
G played on her iPad and ate about 20 snacks. We really have reached the promise land of easier travel! I feel like I’ve been waiting for this for ~10 years. And I guess in a way I have been! Excited about future trips on the horizon.
$$$ Note: We did our ritual quarterly net worth calculation and we are down for the second quarter in a row — more this time than last time. Thanks, economy! We are not really planning on changing investment strategy, but I have wrapped my head around the idea that perhaps the market might never recover and we might have to work for a really long time. Honestly, I’m pretty okay with that. We could always eventually go part time. With no kids at home, working 20-30 hours/week would actually be a pretty cushy lifestyle.
I recognize that most people think that the market will eventually come back, but I do think it’s best to do thought experiments of what one might do if it doesn’t. While it’s slightly tempting to move to more stable investments I think the anguish of missing out if the market DOES recover would be worse than just staying the course.
Either way I guess I’m glad that I have a skill set that would remain at least somewhat valuable even in a #%*# economy. Also I’m REALLY glad we bought our house.